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My humbling return.....

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

I was last here after my lay off in 2009. I was awesome. I tracked, exercised, saw GREAT results !!....... I reunited with a old love it gave me MORE incentive to look hot. That's where I went wrong. I allowed my focus to change from personal satisfaction in what I was achieveing to basing achievement or success off of reaffirmation from the guy. When that "thing" didn't happen as I wished it would I lost sight.

The most consistant part of my life since the lay off has been unemployment. At first it was cool cause I thought I need a vacation. The first year passed. Then the second year I thought ok... this isn't funny anymore. I apply for jobs to the point there are no openings left. Only the date my resume was submitted shows. The regular everyday stress is maximized for me because now I have to depend on my mom to help me. She's awesome for that but it comes with a price. My emotional barometer being at the mercy of someone else is always on edge. Although now I'm more so under empoloyeed. I work 2 jobs and combined I do not have much earning capacity. I'm so ready to move on with my life and this keeps me bound. My stresses are great and food is my comfort.....

I'm here again. I desperately need to be able to be happy and love myself again. My plan this time is to retake the things in my life that I can control. I need the taste of success in one aspect of my life to cause a chain reaction. I need this win for me !!...
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  • ALL4MYSPIRIT
    I'm totally understand the frustrations that comes from the "employment" situation, I'm right there with you fighting to get back to working normal. I've found that my weight is the one thing I can truly control right now, so take it and run with it. You can do this! You'll get through and your life will flourish.

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    2606 days ago
  • DHARRIS1920
    Thank you guys sooooooo much !! for the encouragement. I have so much I want to do and I feel like apart of putting my best foot forward starts with looking the part holistically. I'm really excited to push myself. Thanks for the comments !!

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    2617 days ago
  • SYLBA61
    You should always do it for yourself. You will always be in your life - this may not be true of anyone else. Good luck on your new start. Hopefully you will get the job of your dreams soon. Stress doesn't help when we are trying to lose weight. Keep your eye on your goals - things will look up soon.
    2617 days ago
  • IWUNDER
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    So sorry about the unemployment issues. It is hard out there. I quit my job because we, my husband and I, moved to a different state. We are lucky that he can support both of us. I have looked but not much out there.

    Keep your chin up!!

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    2617 days ago
  • RILDASJOI
    Oh, sweet sister...keep your head up. I'm so sorry to hear about your unemployment. That is tough, for sure. Are you able to do anything to get your mind off of that? Maybe spend time with some uplifting friends? I pray that you will find employment and reach all the weight loss goals you set. It's a one day at a time thing, this life we live. Every part of it is one meal at a time, one workout at a time, one job application at a time. Don't give up! You can overcome this life and have the joy your heart so longs for. Keep your chin up. Hugs to you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2617 days ago
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