He Who Is Without Sin
Monday, September 12, 2011
As I sat with the therapy group this morning I felt myself recoil as I heard the stories of some of the members. My inner voice asked how could they? . . . and as I realized that I was being judgmental I also felt shame. I have always prided myself as being compassionate and sensitive to the feelings of others. That is one of my strengths as a counselor. It does not mean that I condone behaviors, but I try to empower rather than break down. However this morning I didn't seem to get it. I looked at the clients in the group and I wondered how did they get to that point. I knew that I had no business judging, so I prayed, and as I prayed an inner voice reminded me of Jesus' statement "he who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." (John 8:7).
I could throw no stones. I may not be addicted to drugs or sex, but I'm certainly addicted to food. Don't I know better? When I order greasy french fries at the drive thru, or put off exercising, or know that the meal is really three portions, but devour it in one sitting, is that not sinful? I am not a whole lot better than the clients. What they are doing is harmful to their bodies and it puts their lives at risk, but overeating can too. I have not conquered that demon, and as a counselor, I should know better.
I believe that it's not by accident that I found myself in a place that can teach me a lesson, which is a two-fold one - it is not in my place to judge; and it is time to do right by myself. In case I don't get the message this time, I'm sure God will remind me again. That's what a loving father does.