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So Typical of ME!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Came back to Sparks today, because once again, I am feeling like nothing else works for me. So as I am reading my past blogs, I see not much changes with me.

I wish I had a magic wand... I am so frustrated and fed up with myself. I am exhausted and struggle everyday to carry this weight around with me.

I am not aiming to be thin, I just want to do the smaller things in life that my weight has prevented me from doing. I know what I am suppose to do, and how I should eat etc.... But I feel like I am at war with myself and the things I want to eat.

I find it very hard to move around, so with that how do I excercise. I am lazy but in a weird way, it's not that I want to be it's that I feel like I have no choice but to be.

If I can not focus I don't know what will happen, or where I will be in years from now. One things for sure, I can not continue like this. Everything hurts, including my pride.

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  • RUBECCAL
    I'm sorry you are having such a bad day. Coming back to Spark is a good first step. Have you heard of the Chair Fitness Team? I'm not sure if that is exactly what it is called. My mom joined it last month, and she has been more active since. I don't have as many mobility challenges as my mom does, but I can see that the chair fitness is helping her a lot. Let me know if you want the link to the team, and I'll find it for you. I hope your day improves.
    3005 days ago
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