So Typical of ME!
Monday, September 12, 2011
Came back to Sparks today, because once again, I am feeling like nothing else works for me. So as I am reading my past blogs, I see not much changes with me.
I wish I had a magic wand... I am so frustrated and fed up with myself. I am exhausted and struggle everyday to carry this weight around with me.
I am not aiming to be thin, I just want to do the smaller things in life that my weight has prevented me from doing. I know what I am suppose to do, and how I should eat etc.... But I feel like I am at war with myself and the things I want to eat.
I find it very hard to move around, so with that how do I excercise. I am lazy but in a weird way, it's not that I want to be it's that I feel like I have no choice but to be.
If I can not focus I don't know what will happen, or where I will be in years from now. One things for sure, I can not continue like this. Everything hurts, including my pride.