Slow and steady wins the race... I get it, I do. But I wish that ones motivation and clarity could be so patient and leveled. I just came back to Spark at the end of August after being on hiatus this summer; I'm feeling good, on track, setting goals, working consciously to meet my goals. But a part of me, is just begging for results NOW! Which is completely unreasonable! I know. I'm working on getting that voice under control. This to me, is where self-sabotage begins - the impatience. You need to persevere to see results. You need to put in the time. You need to be patient and consistent. And then your reward will be the results - the weight loss, the lost inches, the endurance, and the confidence. So this week's personal lesson is patience! I'm not going to become disappointed or discouraged by the numbers on the scale this week. My scale has been a bit of a roller coaster this week though... 210.6 up to 212 down to 209.8 and finally landed today on 210.2. I've exercised 6 days this week, and have been 'mostly' mindful of my eating - I've done well to get more fruits and veggies and cut out junk. But I need to start using my food scale again to manage portions better, and I need to not eat after 7pm - this was a bad habit that I slid back into this summer. ARGH! So it is what it is. I am starting a new week, with a fresh perspective... I forgive myself any missteps this week, they offer me learning and focus for this new week ahead. If I keep making each day better than the last, then gradually LITTLE BY LITTLE it will pay off.
I realized the other day that my oldest girlfriend's birthday is next Wednesday, she's turning 30... shhh... we aren't really acknowledging our birthdays this year! LOL! Anyway, with the turning of this birthday we've known each other for half our lives - long time! I'm working on putting a positive spin on the number 30! Feeling some anxiety over this, despite knowing it's just a number. In this reflection though, I've been reminiscing over my life goals that I've set through the years. And I've just realized that none of my goals were beyond 30 really... Some have been super vague and could happen whenever and those ones were the ones that no effort was being exerted on to actually accomplish... but then there was "Have children, and be finished making my family by 30" or "buy a house by 30". Well my birthday isn't for another 3.5 months - so in the time until then I'm going to give some focus to where I'm going from here... Where do I want to be? Who do I want to be? What do I want to accomplish? Without answering these questions and working towards something, I will just flounder and float through the years with no direction... with no direction comes no accomplishment. And this will simply not do!
As a family we've planned out the extra-cirriculars for this fall. And we've decided things are going to be different this year. First let me recap for you what last year was like... I work full time, 8-430 Monday thru Friday... and then there was the evening activities:
Mondays we had Beavers (my son was a Beaver, and I actually was a Leader), Tuesday was Cubs,
Wednesday was Gymnastics,
Thursday was Swimming and/or activities at the Y...
Friday was nothing - who am I kidding there was a weeks worth of housework,
Saturday was Swimming for another child
Sunday was more housework so that we could do it all again!
At the time, it was just what we were doing. Our boys wanted to do activities... heck, they NEED to do activities to be healthy, keep busy and stay out of trouble. ;) But really, where was I scheduled into all that? I felt guilty saying that before - like it was my responsibility as MOM to take care of my boys in this way. And it is, to some degree... and I do sacrifice for my boys, but I refuse to sacrifice my own health and well-being week by week. So this fall - I've decided that I will be a priority too! I will not be out EVERY night - they will not be out every night. We've sat down and decided on swimming lessons on Sundays, and Monday evenings for activities. Two nights of activities instead of 5 sounds like a deal to me! In our 'free' time we are going to be more active as a family - and do things TOGETHER! This sounds better to me anyway! We will hike. We will swim. We will play. And we can't forget all that housework, well it'll be done too - by all of us, little by little each day of the week so that it's not such a big job on one day. And I will have more energy. And I will have more ME-time to schedule in workouts whether that means at the gym or at home. Our goal is that this will lead to a more relaxed family; less schedules to keep + more time together = happy!
Anyway, I've totally rambled long enough this morning... Take care SparkFriends, and stay focused on your goals this weekend!