Friday, September 09, 2011
Does anyone remember that movie? "The Never-ending Story"? Amazing movie.....with a great message! It's all about not giving up and making your dreams a reality.
Waiting for the nothing is the only way i can think to describe the funk I've been in lately. Really is like i gave up, sat down (like the rock brighter) and was just kinda waiting for all the bad things to settle at my feet. Bad as in finances, housework, weight, marriage, my job, the kid....all of it. I THREW IN THE TOWEL!
Little by little I am pulling myself out of it. Baby steps to making a new way to do things! I procrastinate and make excuses for EVERYTHING. I don't follow through with anything....hell I don’t even follow through with taking prescriptions full course! Stupid right?!
I’m working on changing that. One step at a time……..I have been making sure everything is ready for work in the morning (lunches, clothes, easy clean up…that kinda stuff), now I’m moving on to getting up early! I am going to start off slow just by being up and making that a habbit. Maybe I’ll start out with sipping my coffee and blogging. I’m going to work my way to cleaning up the house and then running/walking the dog before I get into the shower!! Serious baby steps, I know…..but at least I have a plan!
I have been making better choices with food over the last week too! Not been an angel by any means but still! I haven’t had a soda all week AMAZING (water and tea baby)!! I am reaching for more proteins, veggies, and fruit instead of junk food and I’m eating smaller portions. I’m feeling pretty damn proud of myself right now. It’s a huge change from always feeling like “I cheated” on my diet…….I’ll get to where I wanna be. I WILL!!