Thursday, September 08, 2011
It has been such a long, stressful week. I just feel like I could fall to pieces.
My husband and I have been involved in the care of an older gentleman for some time. He is a dear friend of ours without family in the area. He has been having issues with his health and we have been highly involved in decisions (Power of Attorney, etc) concerning his care. He has been living on his own, with some reservations on our part. Being highly independent, it has been a fine line we have walked between honoring that independence and stepping in with some very hard decisions to place him in assisted living.
Last Thursday, after he had not returned our phone calls, we went to his home and found him face down on the bathroom floor. He was near death. After being rushed to the E.R. and then placed in ICU, he has had his UPS and DOWNS but seems to be on the way to physical recovery. He has a broken leg and is being released from the hospital to an 'aggressive physical therapy' unit in a few days. His mental capacity has always been of major concern and one of the main issues throughout this entire time of being involved with him,. We now realize it will be impossible for us, in good conscious, to allow him to live alone anymore for his own safety.
It is not an easy thing to hold the future of someone's life in your hands. I have never had to deal with a situation such as this before and now have extreme respect for all those caregivers who have struggled with these same issues before us. I can't imagine how difficult it must be for someone to tell their mother or father that they will not be returning home.
My life has gone topsy-turvy this past week. My food choices, exercising, sleep schedule, water drinking, have been exactly the opposite of every article I have ever read on SparkPeople. Ugh. I have spent so many hours speaking to Dr's., nurses, physical therapists, patient care coordinators, etc, etc, etc, I am just emotionally and mentally brain dead. I don't see an end to this in the near future, so I am just hanging on at this time. I am looking forward to the days when things become a little more stable and we can get back to our life as we knew it, or at least something close to it. I know there is always hope and I am clinging to that.
My deep respect to all the caregivers out there!