It's all me....
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
9/7/11 Wednesday 8:15 am
I yell and holler at my kid to hurry up when in fact it's me that got her up & in the shower at 6:40 to be out of the house by 7. She wants to sleep in later so I let her assuming she will shower faster in appreciation but no. A tired kid in a warm shower = sloth! Haha! What erks me is that we have had this "please hurry so mom doesn’t go all sideways on your behind" discussion A MILLION TIMES since she started showering alone. Yet morning after morning it's me freaking out in the morning, and later having to apologize to her. I ask if she has anything to apologize for too....she does, but tragically our morning soap opera will start aging tomorrow morning.
Stepping back and thinking about it makes me realize it's all about me. I let her sleep in, and sometimes even stay up later then usual playing one of those horrible video games she loves. I let her not follow through with what she says she’s going to do. I let her walk past a pile of clothes in her bathroom for days without picking them up. Really, it’s all about me.
SHE’S JUST LIKE ME!! It makes me sad, I don't want her to ever feel like this.....I mean like she is a quitter. Like nothing ever goes right for her. Unappreciated and unaccomplished; Just plain old sad, tired, and discouraged……it’s an ugly feeling.
It’s all about me…….my choices will shape my morning, my afternoon and my evening. My choices will determine my future success or lack there of.
It’s all about me………so what am I gunna do about it?!?!
Really though........it's all about them