And Many More
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
It’s been a long time since I updated this blog, but expect it to be busy the next 12 months.
Two days ago I turned 29. It passed calmly and quietly just the way I like it. It isn’t that I was sad about entering the last year of my twenties—in fact I am looking forward to my thirties. My twenties have been full of ups and downs: my parents moved away; I became an emotional and disordered eater; I graduated with an Associates in Applied Science in Business Administration; I moved to New York to live with my parents after not being able to find a job back home; I became depressed, found a job, developed a passion for studying the Bible, found a church, made friends; etc.
Everything that happens to us in our lives shape the person we are today. My disordered eating has thoroughly messed me up. (I’m sure there is a more eloquent way to express that but this is how I feel.) My hunger cues are skewed and I can’t seem to stop eating when I am stressed, lonely, upset, bored, etc. Food has been my comfort for ten years and I don’t know how to change that.
This is my goal for my next birthday, my one desire, is to enter my thirties healthier and happier than my twenties were; that I will learn to eat normally; that I will exercise because movement is a necessity of life; that I will learn to deal with my emotions rather than eat them away; that I will nourish my spirit just as I nourish my body; so that I can enjoy my next birthday and many more.