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By golly I think the butterfly has fully emerged from her cocoon and is starting to FLY!!!

Saturday, September 03, 2011

I am in such good spirits today. This last year has been a year of transformation. I blogged on that a while back. About how I was the fat caterpillar who was finally starting to emerge from her cocoon as a butterfly. Now I feel like the fully grown butterfly who has completely emerged from the cocoon and is flying high with her new wings. I know that sound cheesy but it is true. I feel like I am free. I have broken the chains that use to bound me.

I have been so busy with school, that I have not had much time for reflection. But I am taking a break on this 3 day weekend, and wanted to share with you some successes that have recently happened.

It is amazing how my friendships with you people helps me put things in perspective. Whether it is a comment on my page, a quote someone shares, or reading someone's blogs, it has such a positive impact on me. If only you guys knew how much you all touch my life and make it a better one. I feel so incredibly blessed. I really truly do.

On Wed. we had a birthday party for my twin nieces who just turned 1. My family is known for their big cookouts filled with delicious foods. This is probably the first time I have been to a family gathering since I got really serious on SP (which was about 3 months ago.) I did such a little thing, yet it really was an AHA moment for me.

It was very important for me to stay within my calorie range. But I did not want to bring a Lean Cuisine meal to the family gathering. That just felt wrong. However I did not want to eat a bunch of sodium packed high fat red meat foods either. So I came to the party with a raw chicken breast and asked my Dad to grill it for me along with his kosher sausages and hamburgers. My Dad is a master on the grill. It was delicious. I was eating real food. But something that would allow me to stay in my calorie range. I ate some of my mom's homemade french fries and said no to the birthday cake and ice cream. I left that party feeling full and proud.

I have finally WON the battle when it comes to food. I know I will probably have to count calories the rest of my life. And I am okay with that. But I do not have to live in fear of food anymore. I can make adjustments, like bring my own chicken, so I am still eating food someone else has cooked for me. So I am treating myself in a healthy way. The fries were a splurge for me. But they were measurable. And that helped me to be satisfied and I was able to say no to cake and ice cream without even thinking twice about it.


The next day I came home and had a little bit of down time and was able to check my email. I use a different email account where my spark notifications are sent to and I only check it every few days. I had like 150 emails. It turned out that I had gotten nominated Sparkler of The Week for the 30's with 50 to 99 lbs to lose team. There are over 346, 000 members in this group. So to have gotten nominated for SOTW was a HUGE honor to me. I was flooded with people who had added me as a friend, sent me goodies, left me comments on my page, and sent me emails. Talk about feeling warm and fuzzy.

I added everyone who added me as a friend, but I am unable to send individual thank yous. I think pretty much everyone knows that I am a single mother taking an 18 hour course load at school. I spend 18 hours on campus a week, AND 18 hours a week student teaching in an elementary school. That does not even include all the papers and lesson plans I have to write, as well as regular homework, journaling, and tests to study for.

This is the most overwhelming and busiest I have ever been. Most of the times I feel like the lady in the Calgon commercial BEFORE she gets in the bathtub. (Calgon, take me AWAY!!!!) But my friend Seaturtle86 left this quote on my page.

""Nothing worthwhile ever happens quickly and easily.
You achieve only as you are determined to achieve…
and as you keep at it until you have achieved."
- Robert Lauer

Thank you Seaturtle86! That really hit home for me. I have got so much on my plate at school. But in the end it will be worth it. I want to be a high quality teacher. And in order for that to happen, I need to be taking all the classes I am taking, and spend a vast amount of time in the elementary school student teaching. It is overwhelming all I have to do, but it is not unreasonable. And when I finally get my degree and become a certified teacher it will be so DAMN worth it. I am done whining about my school schedule now. I have accepted that it is just part of what needs to be done. FINALLY!


You all know that I hurt my leg during one of my 10 mile walks. Turns out it was a HUGE no no to use ankle weights when walking. Especially when you are walking 10 miles. Especially when you walked 5 to 10 miles 52 days in a row and walked 288 miles in one month. All with ankle weights. When my orthopedic doctor found out about this he shook his head and I am sure if it weren't for a lawsuit on his hands he probably would have bitch slapped me. LOL. What can I say? My name is Shelby. I am not always the brightest bulb in the lamp. And I have a tendency of learning things the hard way.

Doc thinks I have torn my meniscus which is cartilage in the knee. I had an MRI yesterday and will get the results on Thursday. If I do have to get knee surgery, the problem will be fixed immediately. The surgery sounds like no big deal. It is done with a laser so they don't have to cut into me or anything. My dad had a surgery for his meniscus and he was right as rain 3 days later. I would rather find out I had a torn meniscus and need surgery and be out of pain then have the doctor not be able to find out what is wrong. I will keep you guys updated.

My friend Russell37 left this comment on my page. "sometimes being injured helps direct all your energy to diet.. which isn't all bad.. when you get back to exercising, you will lose even faster."

He is absolutely right. Because I had to stop doing my 5 and 10 mile walks, I was forced to really focus on staying in my calorie range. When you go from burning 7,000 calories to 1,000 calories a week, it makes a HUGE difference in weight loss. It was more important than ever that I started logging things I didn't usually log. Like gum and water flavor packets and that 47 calorie popsicle.

It also also forced me to do something I had not done EVER. Find another way to burn calories. Now I sit on my stability ball every other day and workout with 5 lb dumbbells. I do it while I watch movies. I call it "movicising." It is super exciting to see my arm muscles developing. I notice a huge difference in my arm muscles and it fills me with delight. I am gonna have me some Linda Hamilton arms just like she did in T2. Just you wait and see. The gun show should be sometime soon. Tickets are going for $10 bucks a pop but all sparkies get in for free! :0)

Thanks Russell37 for helping me see the bright side of an injury.


Today was my weigh in day and I weighed 194.2. I have lost 72.5 lbs! This week I lost 2 lbs. This is super great for 2 reasons. One, because I had a 2 lb weight loss which is not easy to do when all you are really doing is working out your arms every other day and walking around campus 15 minute a day. But the second reason this is so awesome is that my 5% summer challenge was to lose 5% of my body weight in 8 weeks. Well I hit it today, a full week early! This brings me to a total body weight loss of 27% in one year. Say it with me people......


And while I shouldn't be sharing this because you aren't supposed to count your chic-fil-a sandwiches before they are weekend I have a DATE!!!!! This is a guy I have been talking to off and on for almost half a year. I met him on We almost went on a date a few different times but it never worked out. Mainly I think because I just was not happy with myself yet. I still suffered from low self esteem. A huge turn off for men, I was not happy with my body yet. I was not quite a fat caterpillar anymore when I met him online, but I was slumbering inside my cocoon.

We became facebook friends. I think he noticed that I was becoming a butterfly. He was fine with my weight even when I was a size 18. But I was not the same happy condifent person that I am now. He saw me in flight. And now either next Friday or Saturday he is taking me to a fancy shmancy restaurant while my mom keeps my kid.

I have not been on a date in almost a year. No matter how well it goes or doesn't go. I am going to be holding my head super high. I am a newly size 14 butterfly who has gone from being super obese (the highest level of obesity), to being only 3.3 lbs away from the overweight category. I will feel alive and beautiful and I am going to have a great time. If we have chemistry and see each other again then that will be divine. But if not, I will still be happy that I am going on a date and that for the first time ever, I am not worried about what he thinks of my body.


This guy is SMOKING HOT btw. He is 6'4. A tall glass of water this one. I am so attracted to him that if it weren't for the fact that it would make me a stalker and I would have to delete my son's picture, then I swear I would use this guys pic as the wallpaper on my computer. LOL. This is what he looks like...

Woohoo! he is also smart, funny, nice, and has his own house and a great job. He is a Scorpio like me so we will either fall madly in love or else we will kill each other and play a game I like to call "count the dismembered body parts. Last one left standing at the crime scene is a rotten egg!"


Thanks for reading everyone. I have missed blogging and catching up with you guys. I will write a new blog next weekend about the results of the MRI and how my date goes with Jason. Prayers on both matters are appreciated.

Love you all so much.


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    Oooh, he's a hottie!!! Sure you wanted to post his picture on here girl? ajajaj

    Let that butterfly fly girl!
    2418 days ago
  • WATERLASHES are such a stud lil mama..yikes he is so damn fine woman!!..of course so are you glad you remember that!..I so want details!
    2420 days ago
    Hi Shelby! Great blog! Congratulations on all your successes!!! You have such a way with your words. I really enjoy reading your blogs and statuses. You are a great inspiration and a positive role model. Thank you so much for motivating me.
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    2421 days ago
    Be still my beating heart! He is very nice looking Shelby. I just hope he's as smart as he is good-looking -- and especially that he is smart enough to really appreciate you, girl! You're amazing.

    Wow -- this blog is so awesome because you packed it full of accomplishment after accomplishment and all of it deserving of great big WOO HOOS, so here you go:
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    I realize these woo hoos aren't great big, but they are the only size the Woo Hoo emoticon comes in; however, I made up in quantity what it lacked in size. Plus -- it's a 21 Woo Hoo salute!
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  • BECKY3774
    Good luck!!!
    2422 days ago
    LOVE the entire blog but mostly I love learning you are scorpio! That explains so much to this Libra... we have a natural attraction since you are ahead of me on the wheel but anyway, not to astrology geek out, it explains your wicked sense of humor which I adore and your willingness to intensly stare down a problem. Love it!!! cant wait to hear about your date!!
    2422 days ago
  • TME4ME
    I LOVE ready your blogs.
    I am so happy for you in all that you have accomplished, and I thank you for being such an inspiration!
    Have a wonderful time on your date.
    2422 days ago
    You amaze me every time I read a blog or status post! You're are such an incredible person & wish you lived nearby so you could motivate me through my busy life. You have such a great personality, I bet you are a blast to be with! :) Your man is quite the looker ;) I hope you have a fabulous time! Looks like he keeps active, which is awesome for you because you both can keep each other motivated. Nothing like having a lazy bum of a SO to not go do active things with you. I have been MIA on here because school has started back up & with having 25 kiddos (26 during Math & Reading Core from the 3rd grade), 12+ hour days, + my ESL endorsement classes, on top of attempting to keep my sanity with a somewhat social life, I am rarely on SP. I hope you blog about your date & continued successes so I can stay motivated at thinking I have a chance & be kept "in the know" about all that's new with you. Good Luck! :D
    2422 days ago
    Such a great blog hun! Have a great time on your date. Youve earned it
    2422 days ago
    Good luck on the date, Butterfly!

    I hope he does not turn out to be a slug!
    2422 days ago
  • CHAR1970
    You are definitely a beautiful butterfly! And he is a hottie!
    2422 days ago
    Great blog! Congratulations on the weight loss and the mindset change. I love that you can go to a family get together and say no to cake :). emoticon
    2422 days ago
    Ahhh Shelby,, as I started to read this,, I reflected BACK to an older blog you did,, in which you talked about how clean ur house is now,,, and HAD TO LET YOU KNOW how that HAS impacted ME !!! Cos mine also used to unkempt at one time,,,but I hadn't connected the dots as you did,,,and now it's also clean(wasn't as clean as it is today ! LOL I just got a house keeper,but it WAS presentable !). SO TY For that ! The SHAME I felt having someone walk in,,I NO LONGER DO !

    Aren't you GLAD we Told you to STAY OFF that FOOT !!! GRRRR one NEVER uses DUMBELLS on their FEET ! Those things NEED to be BANNED ! PERIOD !!!! That's IT !! Or have a STEARN warning on them ! They DO cause injury,, OH and that GOES FOR ARMS ALSO in case ur thinking "I'll use my them on my ARMS !" NOT !

    WOOOHOOO On the date ! I too have gone from very large, to a size 14,,,and am ALSO wanting to date (though I am MUCH older !) and don't know if this is even possible ,,,but hey, I'll keep my eyes/heart open ! OH YEAH ! CONGRATS ! I wish you well !

    I SURE HOPE you have REJOINED the Spirited Undah Dawgs again !! This time around,, you will be a DAWG and NOT a PUP !! WOOOHOOOOO! YOU GO GIRL !!!! Diane ML
    2422 days ago

    You are doing such a GREAT JOB ...keep up the good work.

    Good luck on the date too as he is definitely HOT!

    2422 days ago
    You go girl!! You have accomplished soo much and are most certainly a beautiful butterfly. But I think she was always therejust waiting to fly. Sending good thoughts your way about your knee.

    And by the way - - kudos on the fine lookin' gentleman.
    2422 days ago
    I hope you have a great time on your date. your right he is very hot. I hope your test comes back with the answers you need. I will be praying for you on both of them and I will say one for you and your classes. I know you will make one great teacher. You have a big heart and that always makes for a great teacher. Hugs to you and your son.
    2422 days ago
    Wowzers! I have to agree with Sweetbeetl's comments about Jason! emoticon

    Sending lots of hugs, blessings, prayers, and positive thoughts your way on your MRI, your date, and your student teaching!

    You are such an inspiration and motivation! Thank you!
    2422 days ago
    I am so happy for your success and mostly I am happy that you are happy. That guy is YUMMY who needs food when you got a treat like that around?? I hope the news from the doc is better than expected:D I have been your bud for a long time on here and the transformation that you have made in such a short time boggles my mind. You deserve every happiness. Love you lots:D

    2422 days ago
    Just came across this blog. HUGE congrats!! You have made great changes!! Your date looks really cute! Have fun! So sorry about your injury, hopefully the surgery is not a big deal and you recover quickly!

    2422 days ago
    Awesome post! You are awesome. emoticon Keep sparking!
    2422 days ago
    I'm so very happy for you! Keep enjoying life and have some fun on that date!

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    2422 days ago
    My Shelby, my Shelby, you cease to amaze and inspire me! I just love you! I am your personal cheerleader and am always thinking and praying about you and your sweet success that is here and more to come. Thanks for inspiring us all and continue to be the warm ray of sunshine that you are! XOXOXOXOXO
    2422 days ago
  • GRANDMA1951
    You have accomplished so much. Keep up the wonderful work. Good luck on your date.
    2422 days ago
    praying for a great outcome.
    2422 days ago
  • KIKI0531
    Congrats to you on ALL fronts !! Sounds like all your positive choices are moving your life in an even more positive direction. emoticon
    2422 days ago
    He is HAWT Shelby. You go girl! You are so awesome. You totally inspire me to keep pressing on in my journey to become a butterfly free of the excess weight that has me trapped in my cocoon =) emoticon
    2422 days ago
    Congrats on all your success!!! How very exciting!! So happy to hear you are fulling embracing your new butterfly form. I hope the date ends up being better then you ever could imagine!! emoticon emoticon
    2422 days ago
    I am glad to read you are no longer freaking about the possible surgery - although I never had it myself, both my step-son and sister said it was "nothing" and recovery extremely quick. Very common injury, sadly.

    WTG on a terrific blog!
    2422 days ago
    I'm so happy for you! You have such a wonderful outlook on everything. You have this positive outlook on everything and you are a breath of fresh air. emoticon

    The whole school thing, yeah. I've been there, and really you have much more to do than I did. I was full-time but I CERTAINLY wasn't student teaching on top of the homework, papers, and studying. Phew.. you're emoticon .

    Any type of exercise is good. Can't wait to see those guns! Love Linda Hamilton! Rawr!

    How exciting a DATE! And what better time than when you DO feel confident. Great work! He's quite a cutey too!

    Looking forward to more blogs when you do have more free, or "me" time!

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    2422 days ago
    Girl I'm so happy for you, he is a little cutie too.....but you, You Shelby have always been a beautiful butterfly, you are warm, funny, sweet, kind, gentle, thoughtful and amazingly supportive to all of your friends, and you deserve the very best this life has to offer.... I'm so happy that you are finally seeing and feeling what all of us already know..... HUGS, Sheryl
    2422 days ago
    Sounds exciting! Can't wait to hear more about this date, hope he is all you think he is.

    2422 days ago
    Can't wait to hear about the date. He is hot. Congrats on all your success. You are such an inspiration to me.
    2422 days ago
    Fly, Butterfly, fly!!! emoticon

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    You go Girl!
    2422 days ago
  • MOLLYM1133
    Wow- loved reading your blog. Keep it up! Shelby, you are an inspiration!
    2422 days ago
    It's exciting to see the real you emerging! :D What an uplifting post, full of successes!
    2422 days ago
  • CHEEKY1000
    Wow! I have really been out of the loop lately. I had no idea you had a handsome fella on the sidelines. I thought it was just the psycho, smuggler from Germany. lol Have a fantastic time!!

    I'm so glad to hear the problem with your knee is "fixable." lol

    Congrats on hitting your 5% weight loss goal--and early to boot! That's awesome!

    I can't wait to reach the stage of sparkiness you're in. It's still fairly early for me (since I only started taking my health seriously in June 2011), so to use your metaphor, I'm still in the caterpillar stage--but working on it.

    Uh, by the way, whatever you do, please don't inspire an episode of Criminal Minds. emoticon
    2422 days ago
  • KERLIN26
    Okay so he is gorgeous! I can't wait to hear all about the date :) I am sooooooo proud of you and how far you have come in the past few months. You were always an amazing person but now you have finally realized it. Love ya Shelby!
    2422 days ago
    Shelby, you are adorable! And a truly gorgeous butterfly! :)

    Thank you SO MUCH for sharing your awesome success moments with us! And way to NOT let an injury stop you from reaching your goals! YOU ROCK! emoticon emoticon emoticon

    Enjoy your date with Mr. Jason Hottie! emoticon Work it, girl! emoticon emoticon
    2422 days ago
  • KA_JUN
    Excellent job on all your progress and your managing your very full work/personal schedule! Keep at it, you're doing great things and it's clear you're reaping the rewards of your positive attitude and hard work! emoticon
    2422 days ago
    i am soo proud of you, as you should be of yourself!! keep up the awesome work!
    2422 days ago
    Yeah to all the successes!
    2422 days ago
  • GODDESS181
    Shelby you make my heart sing!
    Thanks for taking the time to update everyone.
    Have fun tonight! I know lots of people who have had great success on
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    2422 days ago
  • MARTY19
    What a marvelous blog. emoticon on the honor and you so deserve it. I hope your date is out of this world. Did you buy a new dress? Blow his socks off.

    2422 days ago
    Wow that is a LOT of SUCCESS you have managed in the last little while.

    I'm happy that you got the MRI taken care of and hopefully the surgery (if needed) will make your knee all better and you will be back to walking your 10 miles in short order.

    I hope school continues to go well for you. That makes it hard having to go to school for 18 hours and teach for 18 hours plus all the home work and lesson planning and you have more than a full time job there.

    Good luck with your date, he is defiantly a cutie. I married a Leo and I'm a Capricorn I don't know much about astrology but I don't think we are supposed to get along (I know my sister and I didn't and she is also a Leo..LOL).

    Thank you for sharing with us and I can't wait for the Gun Show!!
    2422 days ago
    Shelby you are doing great. Enjoyed reading your blog and reading about all your successes. Remember we are all behind you and here whenever you need help or just want to let us know how well you are doing.
    2422 days ago
    Good luck on your date! Enjoyed your blog!
    2422 days ago
    Oh this is exciting news....and - my goodness - he is most certainly a cute "tall drink of water."

    Shelby, you inspire me! When I twisted my ankle so badly this week - I popped on your page just to remind myself that you're in tons more pain and have had to put the exercise that you want to do off a lot longer than I will. I hope everything with your knee works out easy as pie and you're back in the running in a few weeks!

    Enjoy your freedom from the classroom this weekend, girl!

    2422 days ago
    He is good looking, probably don't tell him you posted his picture in this blog though, lol.
    Good luck on your date, and I hope your impending surgery goes well too!

    2422 days ago
    Hi Shelby, I always like to read your blogs. You're a breath of fresh air, and such a joy to read. I'm delighted you've taken time to make an assessment of how far you've come: that has to be very encouraging to you; and is to me, too. You go to school 18 hr a week, you student teach 18 hrs/week, you raise a young boy, and you love yourself. That's G-R-E-A-T!! If (since) you can do all that, surely I can take good care of myself. See, you're an inspiration.
    2423 days ago
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