Accepting my Fat

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Okay, I know this title sounds contradictory for this site. However, I'm tired of feeling like I have a weight "problem." Ever since I gained this weight, I've been feeling like a lazy elephant. I used to be skinny, and I kept reminding myself of this every day. After my break with my bf, though, I've been feeling pretty low about myself. Then, I read a blog on DailySpark (of which I can't remember the title) about one woman's journey to start loving herself. I was inspired to do so, too. I booked it (pun intended emoticon) to my local library, determined to get some self help books to improve my self esteem. My self-searches on their computer didn't get me where I wanted, but I did find a book that I am thrilled to have found. It's called, Fat!So? Because your don't have to apologize for you size! by Marilyn Wann. She is a 270# woman who started a zine called Fat!So? Its all about how being fat is not a death sentence. I'm learning a lot! She insists that fat is the best term to use for us plus-sized people. All the other euphemisms, "overweight" (over whose weight?) "large" and too many others are words people use because they find the word "fat" distasteful to say. She goes on to say that we have been brainwashed into being disgusted by fat people and wasting millions of dollars on diets, pills, and surgeries which have not even been proved to cure fat. Most people who do these don't even keep the loss for five years! That's what I call a bad investment! I really encourage everyone to read this book, even if you don't consider yourself fat. It's not new; it was copyrighted in 1998. The author has a great sense of humor and thoroughly researched the subject of fat at medical libraries and through medical publications. She also repeats throughout the book that she encourages all people to be active and eat healthfully. It's not that you have to lose the weight, because being thin and sedentary can cause more health risks than being fat and active. I've even read this on the American Dietetics Association's website that, even if you don't lose weight, eating a healthy diet and exercising regularly will help reduce your risk for a number of diseases, such as hypertension and diabetes. (I'm paraphrasing, see their site for the exact wording.) My point here is that I am a Fatso! I'm also active and eat very healthfully, without beating myself up when I eat something that would be considered "sinful." Personally, I had a scare with prehypertentsion early last year. My doctor insisted that I needed to lose at least 20# and eat 1200 calories a day. That's nearly starving myself. I was also to watch my sodium intake, keeping it no more than 2 grams per day. She also recommended I walk 30 minutes a day at least five days a week. It turns out, watching my sodium and walking were the only things that were really applicable to controlling my blood pressure! I never did lose that weight, in fact, I usually was up about 5# every time I saw her. However, my spiking blood pressure soon leveled off. She was having me check it three times a week on my own. Ever since I started walking like she recommended, my blood pressure has stayed well in the normal range. I've found lots of research to this effect online, including when I searched for the DASH eating plan. This stands for Dietary Adjustments to Stop Hypertension. It focuses on low sodium intake and higher intake of potassium, magnesium, and calcium. The nutrients are believed to rid the body of sodium, particularly potassium, and help keep blood pressure normal. In conclusion, I have every intention of being active every day, getting 10K steps a day, eating healthfully, and doing more of the activities I was too embarrassed to do because I thought I was too fat. I've been brainstorming a list of these, including: swimming, water aerobics, volleyball, dancing, I could go on and on. I'm not focusing on losing weight and getting on the scale every day anymore. I just seem to keep circling the same weight. Instead, I will only weigh once a week, but check my blood pressure every day. My focus is eating healthy, being active, and enjoying being a Fatso! Take that, Jenny Craig!!!
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    I think its brilliant. I might have to reread it often to remind myself not to obsess and be abusive too. I know what you mean about remembering what life was like slender. I really think damaged people use looks/weight/diet abuse towards others to feel superior. Sick!! I think I will get the book.
    2754 days ago
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