5K Rookie Running Program: Week 1: Day 1
Sunday, August 28, 2011
I just finished my first day of 5K training! Last time I trained on a treadmill, I kept repeating week one because I could barely do it. I was using C25K, this time I using SP rookie running program. They claim that anyone that can walk for 25 minutes can complete the program and run a 5k. I have no problems walking so I figured bring it on! The treadmill was a lot easier because this time I'm outside, on a sidewalk doing uphill for half of it! It was hard work, but so worth it. I hate running outside where people can see me and being a beautiful Sunday evening there were plenty of people out. But you know what? I didn't care, let them stare at the 300 pound woman running uphill, sweating and jiggling! Let them see what I can do when I try. Let them see me trying to change my body and my mind. Let them see me push myself when my legs are dying and feel like jelly and my lungs burn. Let them see me because I know I will get better. I will get stronger and faster. I will train hard, and finish a 5K. I will show them what I can become. Because as they are watching me, standing or sitting around, I am transforming, I am becoming someone new. I am tired of being the one watching everyone else change, seeing what they can become. Tired of being idle, lazy, unfit and unhealthy. In 5 years with SP I have only lost 40 lbs. That's it! That's less that 10lbs a year! I keep saying I will change, I will do better tomorrow, next week, when the next challenge starts. I will run when my brother gets home, workout when I get this new game or video. Eat better when I get my next Clean Eating magazine. Today I decided to start today, right now. My brother won't be home in time to run with me? Okay, why not run alone, why not prove to myself I can do it alone, that I don't need others. My heart was pounding walking out the door out of fear of not being able to do it alone. But guess what? I did it! Tonight I'm going to a hockey game, lots of junk food, lots of temptation. But guess what? I'm not giving in. I am only going to bring enough money to get into the game. I'm going to bring water and drink it happily while everyone else eats the toxic food that I am addicted to. The food that hurts my body instead of helping it. I can and I will. Because this time is different. It needs to be different. Otherwise in a month or in a year from now I will be writing the same thing, saying this time I will change. I don't want that to happen. I want to be able to say in a year from now that I HAVE changed. That I am happier, healthier and stronger because on August 28th I made the decision to run alone, during a time of day when everyone is outside. I made the choice on August 28th to stop poisoning my body. I don't drink or smoke or do drugs because it is poison so why should I kill myself with poison food instead.