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A few reasons I haven't binged

Thursday, August 25, 2011

during my MIL's stay:
my stomach HURTS - all the stress, all the bickering, yes, but it mainly hurts because I have to take such deep breaths and force my voice out so hard so I can be heard - it's like singing a 10 day aria by the time she leaves. My stomach is in knots. And no, I'm not a trained opera singer so my diaphragm, stomach, lungs and the rest of my screaming internal organs aren't really equipped.

at mealtimes it's easy to not overeat or binge because my food is covered in minute spittle - she talks with her mouth completely full and there are only 3 of us at the table's rude to sit farther away

i'm never alone. Someone is always with me. I can't stuff myself full if someone is always speaking to me, asking me where things are, what there is to do, etc. I'm always in a conversation, and unlike some, I don't talk with my mouth stuffed full.

I'm always cleaning. NO I'm not a neat freak, I'm kind of messy, but the crumb-age in my house is NUTS. No plates are used. Cookie, cake, tart, meat bits, everything, everywhere. I'm sick of scooping up bits of old nasty food. So, yeah, not so into the eating this week.

5 more days. I hope I don't start getting up in the night to eat or just to get some time alone.

I love the woman, she is kind, and sweet, and tries to help at every turn. But sometimes, when my hands are full with grocery bags, I don't need someone to help me by shoving the sun shade from the car into my already full hands. I don't need someone to read to my kid in the car and then put the book in front of my face while I'm trying to make a turn or otherwise driving. I do love her, but I'm going a bit nuts.
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  • no profile photo CD9690487
    You are a rock star! You're making the best of a difficult situation and I commend you for that..hang in there buddy!
    3582 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5983865
    Yikesy yikes. Good job on the not binging. Keep a list of what works and keep it up!
    3583 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8667808
    Here's to the next 5 days going by lickety split. emoticon
    3583 days ago
  • H-DOG-8
    Hey Aaaack! Just wanted to tell you to hang in there! The first thing I do at the end of stressful times like this is BINGE! Try to find some time to do things by yourself while she's there so you don't end up "rewarding or celebrating" with a binge after she leaves. (Or sneaking one in the nighttime to help yourself cope!)

    All the best!

    3583 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10364891
    I hear you, take 10 minute time outs and just be your kindest, most understanding self (it does help!) emoticon
    3583 days ago
  • VSEL56
    MIL's main job is to protect and defend. Take a deep breath and focus on you not her. I hope that you can appreciate the good in her by focusing on the great son she raised that you fell in love with. Best of Luck!
    3583 days ago
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