I had a really funny moment this morning. After a good old cry fest and a 5 month old with the sniffles up a good 2 hours in the middle of the night, I didn't get much sleep. So let's just say I woke up a little late.
Apparently, everyone was a sleepy head. My 5 year old daughter groaned for 5 more minutes in bed, when I said, "No, it's time to get up" she pleaded for 3 more minutes... I repeated myself.... "Ok, Mommy... how about 1 more minute?" I couldn't help but laugh. So she finally, FINALLY, agrees to get her butt out of bed. Inquisitive as ever, she asks, "Mommy, how come I have to wake up when you tell me to?" As tired as I was, I just wasn't up to giving a real answer, so I gave her the old stand-by, "Because I said so." I hate giving that answer, because it's a cop-out, but you know, I was exhausted and just had to.
So sitting here at work waiting for my boss to get in, I got to thinking about that. How powerful an expression over children. BECAUSE I SAID SO. Hmmm.... any adult tried to say that to me, they'd get quite the stink-eye. I would expect nothing less than it back if I said it to another grown-up. But what if I said it to MYSELF?
That's right. So from now on, I think that may be my new motto. BECAUSE I SAID SO. Add it to any of your questions, and it just kind of works. It's an expression of accountability if you can look at it that way.... For Example:
Why did I eat that chili cheese dog? BECAUSE I SAID SO.
Why didn't I go for a walk? BECAUSE I SAID SO.
And then use it for this:
Why should I go for a walk? BECAUSE I SAID SO.
Why should I track my food and water, etc? BECAUSE I SAID SO.
Yes, I think I like that. Because, as many of you said, I AM the only one in control of myself. I am the responsible one. I can be stressed out about it or not. Depressed about it or not. Upset at myself or not. But everything that I'm going to do is solely BECAUSE I SAID SO.
So I'm going to have a great day today. BECAUSE I SAID SO.
Just want to say thanks again to all those who replied to my emotional, stressed out, upset, angry blog last night. Your words were all desperately needed. I appreciate you.