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I am proud of myself today.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

People saw me. They looked at me. I didn't care. Take that, anxiety emoticon

Couch to 5k Week 1 Day 1: emoticon

I jogged... no, I RAN for the first time in a long time... and I plan to do it again on Tuesday. And on Thursday. And the week after that. And the week after that...

A minute has never passed so slowly as when I was running. emoticon But I ran for 4 minutes!! with walking intervals in-between, so my heart rate was probably really high the whole time. I have NEVER sweated so much in my life (although I have done more intense walk/jogging in the past... I guess I was in a lot better shape 3 years ago, but I WILL get back there).

I can't believe I skipped past the whole walking thing and just went straight for running/walking. I am so amazed at my 399 lb body and its ability to do that... and I am certain it has something to do with a little stationary bike I've been using for a month and a half. emoticon Maybe more importantly, the bike has kept me CONSISTENT and now I think it will be easier to consistently run/walk three times a week.. and if I have a bad day, or I am feeling too sore, I can always bike instead... it's a great backup!

I feel incredibly good. I feel like I burned 3x the calories of a normal workout... and just giddy and excited. I guess they probably call this "runner's high," but I think it is more than that. Going outside and exercising in front of people was a huge mental barrier that I just BLASTED through. As far as pain goes, my lower back and left knee were feeling some stress by the end, but it was nothing terrible and I certainly don't think I was harming them. I will make sure never to run two days in a row, just in case.. and I will still cross train and stretch in-between runs. I may need some orthotics, though... my shoes kept sliding around a bit more than I would have liked (luckily, no blisters or anything since it was a short workout).

I cannot wait to start school this fall, because I am no longer DREADING having to walk around campus. I might even walk to school just because it is fun, and I can.

I am so happy. I am experiencing a complete attitude change. emoticon ... I am so glad I have come out of that nearly-year-long depression, and I know that you are all a big factor in it. Without your support and motivation, I don't know where I would be.
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    You go girl! Woohoo! emoticon
    3314 days ago
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    Congrats on running outside! You will be running 5ks in no time :)
    3314 days ago
    Keep that high going girl. It is a great feeling and I am so happy for you. I can't wait to feel that high again. HUGS
    3315 days ago
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    I swear i replied to this last night. GRRRREAT job! I have a lot of anxiety about working out in front of people too. CLAP CLAP CLAP (that's for you!) I am proud of you too!
    3316 days ago
  • ISOLDE316
    Congrats! That's a huge hurdle to have jumped!! It's amazing how the positivity just keeps feeding itself, isn't it??

    I noticed on your profile that you were interested in aromatherapy and doing stress-reducing activities... me too! It's been a huge part of my "new centered regime" as I call it. I wanted to turn you on to a few sites I found in case they may prove helpful to you. I started out just doing the normal diffusion burning, but I've started making my own cosmetics and such too - what a blast! And another opportunity to check in with myself - "what goodness do I want for myself in my face cleanser this week?"


    Good luck and keep on keepin' on!! emoticon
    3317 days ago
    That is great. I love being outside and do my best when I can exercise there. However when winter comes it's hard to be outside that much. Now it sounds like you have broken the barrier and hit the streets. Keep up the good work.
    3317 days ago
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    Great job with the run!!

    I really think college would have been a different experience for me if I wouldn't have been so averse to walking. Great job with these changes you're making and good luck with the new school year!
    3317 days ago
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    I'm proud of you too! Running is a great sport to get into for both physical and mental benefits. Stick with it and you'll reach your goal in no time. Its surprising how quickly you will improve!
    3317 days ago
    great going!!!
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  • RUA8420
    Great job!!! I am still trying to get over excersizing in front of people. You are doing great!
    3317 days ago
    Good job. You are on your way and doing well!!
    3317 days ago
    Great job! I feel like having the courage to go out and run in public is an even bigger accomplishment than running for four minutes - it's the mental barriers that are the hardest to get through! emoticon
    3317 days ago
    Yay! Way to go!

    I had a really awesome active weekend, but made some bad food choices :( Actually it wasn't too bad because I had smaller meals than everyone else but I have no idea how to track it!

    You make me want to run! Thank you and congrats!
    3317 days ago
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    This is awesome to hear! What a real joy! emoticon
    3317 days ago
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    You are amazing. I mean that from the tips of my toes!
    3317 days ago
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    Be not afraid of growing slowly; be afraid only of standing still.
    Chinese Proverb
    3317 days ago
    emoticon emoticon YOU ARE DOING A GREAT JOB...
    3317 days ago
  • BECKYB73
    WOOO HOOO! I'm proud of you too!
    3317 days ago
    emoticon You are doing well, be proud and enjoy! emoticon
    3317 days ago
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