People saw me. They looked at me. I didn't care. Take that, anxiety
Couch to 5k Week 1 Day 1:
I jogged... no, I RAN for the first time in a long time... and I plan to do it again on Tuesday. And on Thursday. And the week after that. And the week after that...
A minute has never passed so slowly as when I was running.
But I ran for 4 minutes!! with walking intervals in-between, so my heart rate was probably really high the whole time. I have NEVER sweated so much in my life (although I have done more intense walk/jogging in the past... I guess I was in a lot better shape 3 years ago, but I WILL get back there).
I can't believe I skipped past the whole walking thing and just went straight for running/walking. I am so amazed at my 399 lb body and its ability to do that... and I am certain it has something to do with a little stationary bike I've been using for a month and a half.
Maybe more importantly, the bike has kept me CONSISTENT and now I think it will be easier to consistently run/walk three times a week.. and if I have a bad day, or I am feeling too sore, I can always bike instead... it's a great backup!
I feel incredibly good. I feel like I burned 3x the calories of a normal workout... and just giddy and excited. I guess they probably call this "runner's high," but I think it is more than that. Going outside and exercising in front of people was a huge mental barrier that I just BLASTED through. As far as pain goes, my lower back and left knee were feeling some stress by the end, but it was nothing terrible and I certainly don't think I was harming them. I will make sure never to run two days in a row, just in case.. and I will still cross train and stretch in-between runs. I may need some orthotics, though... my shoes kept sliding around a bit more than I would have liked (luckily, no blisters or anything since it was a short workout).
I cannot wait to start school this fall, because I am no longer DREADING having to walk around campus. I might even walk to school just because it is fun, and I can.
I am so happy. I am experiencing a complete attitude change.
... I am so glad I have come out of that nearly-year-long depression, and I know that you are all a big factor in it. Without your support and motivation, I don't know where I would be.