A Little History...

Saturday, August 20, 2011

I have been in 2 colleges and three trade schools. I was pretty much hiding from reality in my man cave in my parents basement for WAY TOO LONG...

I graduated high school in 94 and OMG I feel like a dinosaur sometimes. It's like I have to stick my head up off the machine at times to see what new music is on the radio or what is popular on the tube or hell "who is president". I recall mouth agape for like 20 minutes a few years back...

"Cool We Finally Get A Black President & He's Whiter Then All The Republicans"

I have been on and off again sick since 2000. This of course from really bad eating choices and lack of exercise which made for poor circulation. Oddly enough back in 96 I had hypoxia (baby heart attack) I was like 300lbs and walking daily, it just crept up on me and boom, over a few hours I was like mush.

I have a background in Law Enforcement of all things, then computer hardware a little networking. That took me too web design and that opened the door for everything else I do.

I have done everything from Computer Tech to Substance Abuse Counselor to Cook to Medical Waste Clean Up and Carpet Cleaner.

Don't get me wrong life has been an adventure I just really wish I had stopped playing the victim years ago. My excuse has always been "I just don't know how" that answer solved everything.

Like right now, I have no clue how I am paying for meds, no clue where my next meal is coming from, now clue what to do today.... blah blah blah blah

Who cares either way I am gonna log what I eat, I am gonna get my sweat on, and I am gonna lose this far carcus because I am 35 single and a MAN and I want a WOMAN :)

OMG there is a whole other can of worms...

I have never aggresively 'as in gotten of my arse" sought a woman. They all came to me in most cases. Then I have to wonder why it never worked out.

In the past I always ended up unhappy with women who themselves were moderately independent single/ or with mom and a cat. They were always out to see the better me, what they could make me. Never the who and now I was.

I have been to scared to openly seek out the type of woman that appeals to me for fear that I would miss out that jewel that unexpectedly would be coming around the corner.

I hope weight loss spawns self esteem boosting, I would so love to be with someone I could just connect on a deeper level. You know they type of person you can have a sarcastic conversation with in a bathroom. I call that love. Ever been in the bathroom with a member of the opposite sex, that is like a Mission Impossible episode right there.

There is a good chance you are gonna hear the evil, "no correct answer can be given" = "Do I look fat" question, which is like as bad as "Can my mom borrow your bowling ball" I mean OMG how do you combat that while half naked shaking your junk over the toilet, that is so LOVE.

STOP LAUGHING... "I am sensitive" (rofl)


... breathing



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    Well, this will sound SO cliche, but... when it's time, God will send you the one for you. (Please dont roll your eyes at my next sentence, because I'm being serious... for once... hehe) If a girl doesnt love you for you or come to you for the right reason, they are stupid. In just a few days, I know you are handsome, sweet, funny, smart, snarky/sarcastic (in a good way... it's a bonus for chicks like me!), and more. Any chick would be lucky to have your attention ;)

    You are doing this. You are driven and nothing is going to stop you. You rock! XOXO
    2984 days ago
    One step at a time X, one step at a time...you'll get there.
    2984 days ago
    You are smart, funny, have a deep faith and work hard. You will do this, you will drop the weight. I think that the self esteem is there, its just a little shy. hugs.
    2984 days ago
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