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Fear and Loathing in my kitchen

Friday, August 19, 2011

Okey dokey. Right. On my long binge free streak, I found confidence and strength, it kept building. And now, I have fear in place of my confidence. The pantry even smells a little of fear. The fridge, too. I am finding myself shrinking away from even thinking about food.

Where is that confident girl who lived in my head a few short days ago?! Tuesday. The loathsome biotch left me in the lurch! A tiny problem comes up and she packs up and takes a long hike. Now I have to either hunt for her, or find someone new. A new confident girl-person who can dwell in my head, tell me that my painted nails still look ok even though one broke off in my boxing glove today. One who can think about planning dinner without feeling panicky.

But I just wanted to take a minute to wish that fair-weather girl from Tuesday a loud "good riddance!" If she can't hang when things get tough, then I need to find a brain-buddy who can. After all, a powerful woman needs a powerful alter ego, right?

Let's call her...Strong Sadie, no no, Sally Strong, nah, Penelope Power-up. Oooh, her middle name can be Positive. Penelope Positive Power-up.

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    GREAT BLOG pal!!! I have been there (duh!), and I was feeling so confident inside. Like I could sit on a bean bag chair stuffed entirely with marshmallow fluff and NOT even think of unzipping the chair for a peek. That was day 39 and then kabluuey, my inner strong gal took off for Guam or something and I attacked the chair with a spatula!
    OK, where on earth did that come from?! : ) let's be strong for each other and be our own pillar of power!!!


    3586 days ago
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    Bad ass Betty? Devil-may-care DeeDee? I do heart Penelope Positive Power up. I need to call up my Slim Shady as well. I think ours are trying to high five each other.
    3589 days ago
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