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Reflections...hurt a little

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Every so often I forget that though I am out of the 300's I can't slow down or let myself fall back on old habits. Am I ahead of where I am supposed to be right now. Yes I am, but if I keep on the way I have been then that lead is going to shrink down and I will soon be trying to chase my goals.

We were asked to reflect for the BLC #11 challenge and I reached my goal of losing 16 lbs a week ago. I want to keep going but this last week has been truly heinous mentally, emotionally, and physically.

I haven't lost interest in getting healthy, but I am lacking the motivation. Can I motivate other yes...no problem, but when it comes to myself I am not so kind. I wake up tired, go through my day in a haze, and am tired when I get home and don't much feel like doing anything at all. I can't say that it has been easy. Why do I not deserve the same motivation that I give to others?

Tomorrow I weigh in and I guess I'll see what this week has truly done. Up or down...I am somehow going to get myself back on track.

I hope everyone else has a blessed rest of their week. Keep pushing forward folks.

Hill
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  • BRENSJOURNEY
    Oh, and congrats on 16 lbs down!!!
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    2641 days ago
  • BRENSJOURNEY
    I know this feeling all too well, I felt the same last week. I had a pretty good summer, so I was sailing along stress-free... but as soon as I hit a bump I remembered just how HARD it is to keep it up when we are being weighed down by other emotional issues. It's tough. I had a rough week last week, but I wasn't willing to let all of my work slip away so I finally got back on my elliptical and I'm moving along again. Of course, today I got two letters regarding state audits and an email about a bank audit, so this will be an interesting next few months! I just hope I can stay focused on my health and not let stress drag me down.

    Keep it up, Hillary! We can do this.

    2641 days ago
  • SHADOWSEER
    First of all, I want to congratulate you on your weight loss thus far. That is an absolutely amazing accomplishment, and I am so happy for you. I wish I could still lose weight that fast, but I'm just working out of a slump. Second of all, I completely understand how it feels to be unmotivated. It's easy for me to encourage people as well, and hard to encourage myself especially when I'm going through a difficult time. What I always do is look back on my accomplishments, either through pictures or just through old blogs to see how much I've changed. It may help encourage you. Sometimes we just have off weeks, and once we get them out of our system, we can start up again. Writers often say, "we are our own worst critics," and I think that is the same way with losing weight. Everyone around us may go, "WOW! You look amazing!!! How much weight have you lost?!" But we gaze into the mirror and say, "look how much I have left to lose." It's a hard fact that we deal with, but the think is, you are doing it, you can do it, and you WILL do it. You've already lost 16 lbs! Even if you have a slight gain this week, you can get rid of it. You can go far past that goal. You are showing motivation just by joining Sparkpeople and BLC. Don't give up. You can do it, and I hope you can find the self-motivation to see this through. Good luck, and keep pushing.

    Erin
    2648 days ago
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