Update on my Aunt Martha
Monday, August 15, 2011
Thank you everybody, who sent prayers and well wishes to me and my family. It was very comforting for me to know so many people were supporting me.
My aunt Martha passed away at 5:55pm on Saturday, August 13th; I was privileged enough to be standing at her bedside as she drew her last breaths. She labored long and hard, but I know she is at peace now. It’s a cliché expressed often after someone dies, but for the first time, I was able to feel that.
And while I know she’s at peace, I’m feeling a bit raw and overwhelmed. Someone, once very dear to me, used to say when he was hurting emotionally “It’s like I have an emotional sunburn all over my body, it hurts everywhere I’m touched” I kept thinking about that this weekend; how true that is, I’m also feeling a loss and an emptiness I’m unable to articulate and haven’t felt since my father died.
Her services will be this coming weekend and I’m having serious doubts that I will be attending. Going to LA two weekends in a row, under such circumstances is not an easy task. I want to support my uncle and my cousin, but I think I’m emotionally out of gas. I feel guilty about that, but I also know I need to conserve energy, as I will be having a minor medical procedure in a few weeks – I’ll keep you all posted about that in a separate blog.
Thanks again for all of your love support and prayers! It meant more than you can possibly know.