Sunday, August 14, 2011
I am kind of in a funk.
I woke up with my hands and feet swollen. Not sure what is up with my body lately.
I haven't been tracking my food on here, but I know I am eating less than I am burning. I have started tracking again today.
I am STILL not losing weight, even though I have added two pilates classes (which include a LOT of ST) AND a zumba class on top of what I do on my own.
I am not talking to my best friend, who it turns out is quite the manipulator.
I am so sad that when I look at the weight I "should" be at this point vs where I am this morning, I could just go back and crawl in to bed....but I won't.
I keep getting told to "just keep at it", but I have been "keeping at it" since May. This morning the scale said 187. I have been ticking up and down from 182 to 187 for weeks and weeks. I have tried everything...literally.
The trainer who does the pilates classes suggested a cleanse. She told me to google isogenics and try out their cleanse. I really don't know what else to do.
I feel like I need a break. Karma needs to throw me a bone. I have been working hard. Where is my pay off? I have been a good friend, a good wife, a good mother, a good worker. I have eaten well, I have worked out hard. Where are the fruits of my labor?
My hurt locker is freaking full.
I REALLY want to reach my goals. I have tried everything people have suggested. I am just really down....