48 Weeks To Go
Saturday, August 13, 2011
This week I was sitting at 203lbs...only 4lbs to go to be out of the 200s. I busted my ass all week making sure to get my cardio in, walking over 20miles total and burning over 1000 calories each time. I've been watching what I put into my body as well, but I still have this sneaking suspicion that it won't reflect on the scale. I have a feeling that I will see the number go up, and that worries me, because then I get in the frame of mind of "what's the point? nothing I am doing is mattering, so why should I kill myself doing it?" And I really don't want my brain to go there. There are 7 days left until I have to squeeze into the dress I bought for Kasey's sister's wedding, and I just feel like it's going to suck the life force right out of me. I want to be comfortable but I also want to look good. I know this week's blog is kind of a downer, but I needed to vent. On the plus side (sort of)...I think I might have found my wedding dress, and it's super cheap...for both the dress and the veil, I'm paying $170.00. Wish me luck tomorrow...weigh in day, and keep everything crossed for a lower number.