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Saturday, August 13, 2011

This week I was sitting at 203lbs...only 4lbs to go to be out of the 200s. I busted my ass all week making sure to get my cardio in, walking over 20miles total and burning over 1000 calories each time. I've been watching what I put into my body as well, but I still have this sneaking suspicion that it won't reflect on the scale. I have a feeling that I will see the number go up, and that worries me, because then I get in the frame of mind of "what's the point? nothing I am doing is mattering, so why should I kill myself doing it?" And I really don't want my brain to go there. There are 7 days left until I have to squeeze into the dress I bought for Kasey's sister's wedding, and I just feel like it's going to suck the life force right out of me. I want to be comfortable but I also want to look good. I know this week's blog is kind of a downer, but I needed to vent. On the plus side (sort of)...I think I might have found my wedding dress, and it's super cheap...for both the dress and the veil, I'm paying $170.00. Wish me luck tomorrow...weigh in day, and keep everything crossed for a lower number.
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  • HOPE2011
    I get wanting to quit because what you do doesn't seem to make a difference, but....it does! Don't let the scale's lack of cooperation stop you! Your efforts will show up on the scale eventually!

    Here's another thing: you don't want to make Kasey do this by himself. Speaking for myself, it's easy to get off track on my own, but knowing that my husband is in it with me and needs to see me doing well to keep at it, keeps me going.

    Congrats on the find of your dress - that's awesome! I hope it works out for you!

    Stay strong, and never EVER give up!! emoticon
    2654 days ago
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