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Friday, August 12, 2011

This week has been a weight loss roller coaster. It is interesting to watch myself desire to NOT tell people that I am trying to lose weight. I think in my head I would rather surprise people? Truthfully I wonder how scared I am that I won't succeed. I wonder if I have set my goal too high (it is still at the very top of a healthy BMI). I wonder if I can keep the goal... I have no reason to believe that I can't make it (I am down 13 pounds already, in a little over a month) - but it is discouraging to have spent the last two days feeling hungry and then weigh in a pound higher in 2 days. I wonder if I am snacking and not logging it? I fight the desire to not eat the allotted calories for the day in an effort to lose weight faster. Ugh. These are all the reasons they tell you not to weigh yourself every day.

I am going to make a commitment. I will weigh myself on Saturdays. Only on Saturdays. That is somewhat cheating because it means that I can weigh in tomorrow - but with my teaching schedule I think it is healthier to not weigh in on a school day. I don't want that to affect how I feel every day.

So there. I have been shy and not wanted to tell anyone I was on a diet. But now I am blogging. We'll see how that goes.

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    I too don't want to tell people I'm making a life change to be healthier and ultimately lose weight…same fear, not succeeding. This is one of the reasons I joined SP so that I can express what I'm feeling and get support from others going through the same thing. My friends and family have heard me complain oh too many times that I am unhappy with my weight, etc. It's time to just SHOW them I can do it instead of constantly talking about it. You can too! 13 pounds down is great! emoticon
    I'm always here if you want to vent or just need support!

    Rebecca emoticon
    2465 days ago
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    I've just found/read your blog, well done on your 1st 13 pounds weight loss, keep it up girl, youre doing great. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2472 days ago
    Thanks for the positive comments. I totally get what you are saying Slowery... That has been my temptation, too... but then I wonder if people would freak out if they thought I had lost that much all at once. There is no healthy way to do that! Although the moving idea might fix that... ;-)
    2473 days ago
    Woot! Welcome! Congrats on the first several pounds!

    Once a week weight is definately a good idea, and maybe also set up some fitness tests, for those weeks when things just won't budge, but you KNOW you've been working hard!

    As for not wanting to tell people, for me it's kind of related to the image that I've fostered of me being comfortable with my weight for so long. I feel like if I want to change it now, people will be all like "I told you so", in fact, when they congratulate me or comment on my weight loss at all, I get all pissy. Would it be weird to stuff my clothes until I lose ALOT of weight, then move to a new state and start over in my new body so that no one knows the old me? Ugh, I hate the thought of how my sisters are gonna be all gloaty cuz they've wanted me to lose weight for years..

    2473 days ago
    Hi Wendy!
    Blogging on Spark is a great way to tell people and still kind of stay anonymous - I mean really - do I really know you? No - but I can tell you that you are doing a great job emoticon and to keep up the great work! You will receive encouragement without having to worry about letting others down.

    I know exactly how you feel because I am on Day 19 of my new plan and I have not shared what I am doing fully with anyone. My kids and hubby know that I have been exercising more but other than that I have not wanted to share a thing. Like you, I think I want to surprise people - do it first, talk later!

    2473 days ago
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