Not ALLOWED to??
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
I read a LOT of blogs on here that people, especially those that show up on my feed, have written. I don't always comment which I know I should but sometimes I just don't really know what to say or how to help. Today i read a number of blogs of people who confessed about eating a cheeseburger, going to mcdonalds, having a piece of chocolate or a bag of chips or a glass of soda/pop and then blogging about how they did this knowing they're not ALLOWED to do it. Um.. wait a second. I don't understand this. You're not allowed to? I understand we're all here to lose weight or maintain the weight we've lost. And to change eating habits, etc but I've never through this journey said to myself "okay self, NO more fast food, NO more extra calorie coffees, no more chocolate or soda or chips!" Why haven't I done this? Because the second I start feeling like I'm depriving myself of any kind of food I know I will fail.
I look at this more as making healthier choices daily and watching what I eat instead of constantly shoving food in my face. But if I'm out somewhere getting groceries or paying bills or w/e I am doing while I'm out and it gets close to dinner time I do pick up food before heading home (doesn't happen very often) instead of cooking when I get home which could delay dinner by an extra hour or so and can't really happen with kids who have bedtimes of 8 and 9pm. Do I feel guilty when I pick this food up and eat it? Hardly. I know it's not an every day thing and I know that when i reach my goal weight that it's not always going to be good eating, in fact, I can guarantee it won't. And yes I do have a chocolate bar every once in a while or a bag of chips, not every day like it used to be, but I refuse to cut it completely out of my life and when I do have it every now and then I don't feel bad for it either.
So I guess my question is this. Is it wrong to think like this? I did cut pop out, but again not completely but I don't drink litres of it every day like I used to and when I do have it I do see it as a treat and it usually happens when I've picked food up for dinner. I mean we eat out now maybe twice a month where before it used to be once or twice a week. Is it wrong that I'm "allowing" myself to eat chocolate, chips etc every once in a while and not feeling guilty when I do? I track it all and I can see what the result is at the end of the day when I do eat this stuff if it pushes me over my calories or just gets me too close to the end of my range but I honestly don't really feel bad for eating it. is this slowly setting myself up to fail at losing all the weight I need to lose? I don't think it is. I weigh myself daily (I know I shouldn't! Don't scold me!) and I actually have been feeling pretty good about myself even with the few rough patches I've hit emotionally but I still don't feel like I'm going to give up any time soon with losing weight.
I guess I'm confused as to whether or not I should be making myself feel guilty for "indulging" once in a while. Or how come these other women talk about how they did things they're not allowed to do, yet if it were me I wouldn't feel bad for it at all. I'd just track it and move on. If any body has any opinions I'd love to read them.
If this blog makes no sense at all I apologize for that lol.. I think maybe I rambled.