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A Sad Anniversary

Friday, August 05, 2011

I feel like if I talk about this it might help, even though my instinct is to go under the covers on my bed and stay there this weekend. My son was killed in a motorcycle accident one year ago tomorrow. It is so hard to wrap my mind around it-a whole year gone. It seems like only yesterday we were awakened by police at our door in the middle of the night. The 3 of them were standing there, looking at us like they would've rather been anywhere else in the world than on our doorstep that night. They were so sweet and so nice, and I will never forget their words...we regret to inform you... I kept thinking no, it can't be what I think it is. I guess I feel like the pain should be less by now, but its not. Maybe it never really does get better, easier to talk about maybe,but no less painful. I don't want to hide from it though, I want to talk about it and I want to get through it in a positive way if I can. My husband has gone up North to work, so I am alone with my 9 yr old, and all my family is up north too. It feels lonely. I think we are going to visit the local animnal shelter tomorrow and make a donation in Corey's name. He loved his dogs, and he was the president of a motorcycle club, and he sponsored club events to raise money for their local spca. I feel like he would like that we gave to them in his honor. Anyway, for those that have chosen to read this, thank you for allowing me to share my sorrow and grief. I really want to try and accept support and help at this time, that will keep me on the right track for my health. Thankyou-
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    P- I still think about you all the time. I can't imagine your heartache. Find solace in your 9 yo. He needs your warmth and the sunshine you bring into his life -and others.
    I would love to hear from you. I am not giving up on you, my friend!
    3594 days ago
    No words can express the pain a parent must feel when they lose a child. No words anyone speaks can take away your pain. You are doing right. Talk about something that he likes. Donate your his name. Hug your 9 year old a little tighter tomorrow and RUN FREE......Your heart will always ache but he is forever by yourside. emoticon
    3641 days ago
    You are in my thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine words could help you, but hopefully you'll feel the prayers and God's love for you.

    3641 days ago
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    So sorry for your loss!
    3641 days ago
  • EVELYN5877
    Ironic that is my daughters birthday, she is now 41, yet for you the same date holds such sorrow. On sept 11th my husband will have been dead for one year. I keep telling myself that it is a day like any other, but I will be reliving it and thinking of him.

    I am going to make two lists. One all the positive things that I liked and missed about him, the other list, all the positive things I have managed to do for myself since he's been gone.

    I hope you get through the day with as little pain as possible. Don't forget the 9 year old will be missing him too, and maybe not knowing how best to react. emoticon
    3641 days ago
    emoticon emoticon sorry
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    So sorry for your loss..
    3641 days ago
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