Thursday, August 04, 2011
I have been terrible lately. I was doing great with working out and stuff until late July, when I went to a wedding and then stayed at my boyfriend's for like a week. Aside from kind of messing around in their pool a few nights, I didn't really exercise much. I didn't exactly eat too healthily either, but I did drink less soda than I thought I would. I think that's 'cause my boyfriend watches out for me on that stuff.
But since I've gotten back? I haven't done a thing, other than pack and write for Gaming Bus. I go to my new apartment in about two weeks, and I've been seriously stressed about that. My sleep schedule is all messed up (trouble falling asleep, sleeping later than intended) and it's just been... ugh. Though, part of that is I started drinking soda again when I got home and the caffeine really ramps me up on top of the synthroid. So I've had to cut that out again. Hopefully that helps.
Add onto that the frustration that my grandma pretty much fries everything and it's always potatoes and corn or potatoes and peas or potatoes and... I dunno. It's frustrating. I can't exactly make my own meals but I have been trying to put more vegetables on my plate than the meat she (generally) fries. And I have this general frustration that I feel like I should be able to eat what makes me happy, and if that's waffles at 10pm, well then why not? I dunno. I guess I feel disenchanted with the whole being healthy thing. I feel like it shouldn't be this hard. Maybe once I go to a nutritionist I'll be able to figure out different ways I can eat; being able to cook for myself again will definitely help too.
Despite all this my weight has been remaining pretty constant at 170. Obviously it's frustrating to not lose anything (despite the fact that I feel a LOT better overall, even with the stress), but at least I'm not gaining. And really I can't expect to be losing when I'm not taking care of myself. Hopefully after I take my cat to the vet later, I can hoop for a half hour (I was doing a half hour 5x a week before I went to Ryan's, on top of 30-90 minutes of other stuff) and maybe even walk outside if it's not too terribly hot. I need to get back into drinking enough water too.
I guess I've temporarily fallen off the horse, eh?