The way I view myself.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Over the years I have ALWAYS been concern how others viewed me.
Was I pretty enough? I sure didn't think so by a long shot.
Was I smart enough? Mom always told me my sister was prettier AND smarter, that sure answered that question.
Would the boys like me? If they did why didn't they ask me out.
And of course the age old concern...was I thin enough! I did not believe I was, after all my mom kept telling me I wasn't and of course my brother always told me I was a "beached whale" , I weighed 122 pounds!! (By the way he is now such a jerk, I feel sorry for his wife and daughters.
And then the epiphany!!
I now don't care what others say of think of me! I truly don't care!
Others can form their own opinions, and bully for them, but their opinions are just that, opinions and don't affect MY OUTCOME. Their time for controlling me is O-V-E-R! They had their chance and the only outcome I had was a weight of nearly 280 pounds!! All because I cared what THEY thought. Fad diets, starvation diets...I TRIED them all in the effort to please THEM! (this includes the fashion industry, BTW why aren't there any cute sundresses for me? I remember one designer saying he would not allow his designs on "fat people" if they wanted cute clothes then they should lose weight!! The audacity! )
Well, I AM MAD AS HELL AND I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE!!
I am learning to love myself enough to care about ME. I am doing this for ME and at this point I no longer care what others think of me. Only I affect my results. And to that end I LOVE ME!!
and you can take that to the bank