the team effort
Friday, July 29, 2011
Just read part of a sparkmail about needing a team to lose weight because I "can't do it alone". I have to think about that. I've never belonged to a team that was supposed to be for support, only there was always the person who pushed and pushed - "You can do that extra few rounds!" "Don't give in to that piece of bread!" and so on. In other words, teams sometimes turn out to be bullies, and all in the name of "helping".
I didn't have a coach the entire years I was a runner. I did everything on my own. I joined Team in Training once but only went to about 3 of the training run sessions because out of 25 people, I was always by myself. I didn't feel like I was part of a Team. I felt like a stranger, a tagalong, an outsider not really welcome because everyone else was either there with their friends or they were loners and not interested in running with another person. Heck, I can do that all by myself, alone!
My "team" was the company in San Diego I got all my gear from, and that's pretty much it. I went through many kinds of shoes before I found the ones that worked best for me, and ran all kinds of distances before I found the one I enjoy the challenge of.
Today, I am jogging again. I started up about 3 weeks ago. Called my old company in San Diego and learned that they have exploded in their business, but they still have all my information on record, and it felt good to be welcomed back to their family. They are my team once again. I don't talk about it at work because of some peoples' attitudes of discouragement and ill will when they see me doing well in spite of the environment.
Last evening I decided it cooled down enough to take my dog for a walk, only when I went out to call for her, the little brat came trotting back from her own walk to wherever she'd got off to. Hmph, thought I. I'll just take a shower and go to bed and lie very still. But.
It didn't happen that way. I put on jogging clothes, did my stretches, put on shoes, drank water, and did my mile jog in the dark. I anticipate that next week will be a very full one and jogging will have to take a back seat, but when I can, I will, even if it's at 9:30 at night because that's when I can go. This weekend I am on call and will not be able to go jogging at all; the glove has been thrown down. I bought expensive shoes; I can't afford to waste money like that, so I need to make good on the purchase.
I guess, then, it's possible to be my own team when all I have is me to get me out the door.