Getting more comfortable....
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Hello Sparkfriends. Yes it's me, I'm not lost forever.
Just wanted to check in and let you know that I'm still alive and kicking.
I haven't really utilized Sparks's tools lately. I haven't logged my food in and I haven't blogged or anything else. I guess just being lazy or busy. One of the two. I also haven't continued with the ear patches thingy I had tried with my mom. I really wasn't loosing much and the truth is I have lost more on my own than with them. The only thing I love about it was that it helped me sleep better and I loved their super diduper scale that broke everything down.
I have pretty much worked on my own. But I haven't been consistent, or to healthy, or sticking to any plan. But I have lost another 3 lbs. I have to admit that I'm all over the place. Some days I'm super good and then another one so so and then another one really bad and then weekends roll around and forget about it. But somedays I have protein shakes, while another day I'm eating Special K with apple slices all day, then small dinners, etc. I know, I know it's not the correct way to go about it but at this time I just can't seem to do it any other way.
It's frustrating to myself that I just can't seem to be persistent. I mean I was back into the exercising thing and then totally fell off. Well this heat didn't help things either.
But what I meant with my title was that little by little I seem to be getting more comfortable with myself. Myself meaning my belly and other fat areas. (hahaha sounded funny to me) Idunno if that's good or bad. Good I would think cause I don't beat myself up about it as much and I'm learning to feel pretty and good even with my tummy and even when clothes don't fit the way I wish they would. But bad because this makes me go into a certain bad mode of oh well I'm okay with this so why should I torture myself trying so much. You know what I mean. It's like ah what the heck, I'm okay with myself so I'll just eat whatever today.
So it's a constant struggle no matter what trying to find a balance even with the good things. Cause we all know, even too much of a good thing is bad.