A Shred of Much Needed Light

Thursday, July 28, 2011

A couple of days ago I picked up my journal and wrote out all my frustrations with my lack of real effort...pretty much all my failures. I am notorious for creating challenges (100 day challenge, 12 week challenge, blah, blah) but not even completing a full day. I proceeded to make an attempt at moving forward and promising myself the next day would be totally on-track... Fail.

Yesterday I was so down with myself about it. I was trying to analyze (as I know we all do) why, why, why do I do this to myself? Why can't I even go one freaking day without messing it up? Why do I have to keep changing my start weight because the scale keeps going up and not down? Ugh...it was depressing.

But then my spirits lifted a bit - a little light (or spark, ha, ha) in the dark clouds that were over me yesterday. I filled up a baggie with crushed ice and started icing my shins - oh, yay, right? Shin splints in only the 2nd week of C25K (I was running 4 miles back in February before an injury). But then I realized I was secretly a little happy or proud maybe, that I NEEDED to ice my shins. I have actually been working out with CONSISTENCY this week! Three days in a row and today will be four. It's something, and I REALLY need something right now to keep me positive and to keep me TRYING. I won't give up. Maybe today will be the day when I get my food act together.
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  • KERSTIN814
    Yeah you. I think you are setting goals that are too big and hard to do. Clean out your goals and set one small attainable goal, whatever it is for you. Maybe just run 1 mile or something. Set a goal small enough that you can and will do it. Then, it can always increase. It is easier to change your life one little step at a time, rather than big, huge goals.
    2456 days ago
    "To climb steep hills requires a slow pace at first."
    Hang in there. Baby steps are better than no steps at all.
    Have a nice weekend!
    2461 days ago
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