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You ruined it - or did you?

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Where do I begin? Ah, I’ll start where I screwed up. Let’s see…oh, well, that was a series of mistakes. Ok, I’ll start with the biggest one: 2010 Holidays – I deliberately ate whatever my heart desired because ‘I want to enjoy the holidays. I told myself and anyone who questioned the volume of food I shoveled in my mouth ‘I know how to get the weight off’. The 50 lbs I lost became 40 thanks to that great decision.

So did I really know how to get the weight off. Sure. Did I? No. Fast forward a couple of months, work is really busy, there is a lot of snow and comfort foods seem just perfect for my mood. I can always get back on track tomorrow. Right. I’m working out, but not enough to make a difference. I got back to 45 lbs, but then slipped back to 40. I could do better. I spend most of March and early April working really hard just before vacation. I got back to 45 lbs again. One week on vacation and I’m at 37 lbs lost. I pull things together again and I’m back to 43 lbs lost in a few weeks.

In May I decide workouts in the morning that involve too much jumping and running are too difficult, but I’m great on mornings with strength training and circuit training. I take a look at the calorie burn and decide I will focus on strength training and use Jillian and Bob’s various circuit programs for my cardio (i.e. cardio with ST). I decide to listen to the message that women will not bulk rather than following my long-standing fear that I will. I steadily increase the weights. The treadmill starts to collect dust and the Turbo Fire workouts stay neatly in their package. Five to six days a week through the end of June I lifting weights with circuit training. My eating is decent. I’m firming up. I see the muscles in my legs, I’ve got “big guns” (thank you DH, but telling me that I could be a female body builder was not a compliment - but I do agree it is better than flabby), even my forearms look better… but my pants and blouses are getting snug. What is going on! I get on the scale. GASP! I’ve gained! 33 lbs is all I can claim.

Lessons learned:
#1 -- I DO NOT have this all figured out
#2 -- Constantly going over my calorie range means I will not lose weight – even if I workout frequently
#3 -- Some girls just bulk. You’re one of them. Strength training is very important, but keep it to 2-3 days a week
#4 -- Like it or not, those jarring workouts are necessary for success. They have to be done on weekdays before work.
#5 -- Stop buying candy. Even when you think you can work it into your calorie range, you don’t. You just want more…and then you want something salty.
#6 -- When your pants start to feel tight, they are! They were not just washed, and even if they were, the used to fit post wash just fine.

I'm starting over with basic goals. I've gotten away from things that I have learned. I looking at this like I'm new to SP. Goals:
1. Log into SP once a day. Using the app is great, but I really need to read what others are doing to stay focused.
2. Calorie range: I’m going to try to get there at least 5 days this week.
3. Protein at each meal
4. 3 fruits and 5 vegetables a day
5. Limit the number of meals from a box to 4 per week
6. Exercise: 5 days this week – minimum; three of the days need to be just cardio.
7. Water: Keep filling up that bottle
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    Sadly I can relate to #6 emoticon actually I can relate to all of it and am right there with you in my own sort of way. Started last week by turning up the exercise and this week choosing better food and cooking. Next week I'll start looking at the calories again. It's a cycle, that much I know. I've also noticed I actually DO SOMETHING ABOUT CHANGING the #6 much quicker than before and not resentfully either. This is a huge HANDS UP for me in the positive behavior change department! emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 7/26/2011 3:48:48 PM
    Sounds like a good plan to me. :0)
    2497 days ago
    Hello, sunshine!
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    I'm proud of you.
    And I just wanna say that, dang, who knew the workouts would bulk you up and make you heavier? The thing is, you WERE doing something...and it was something you have by no means been "wheels off in the ditch." Maybe you clipped a mailbox or two, but you're good.
    I have to echo the person who said you were one of their first SP friends and how much you've helped her. Cause that's my story, too. Remember when I used to send you Sparkmail every day to ask you how things worked on the site? LOL Now look at us. Buddies for almost a year!

    Mandy, coming soon.

    This isn't a sprint. It's the mother of all marathons. I'm glad you're my running buddy.

    2498 days ago
  • GERRYD8784
    Good plan! I know the feeling -- "I can lose weight later, I've done it before, so it's OK to indulge now" It's always a "special occasion". But I too need to keep coming back to basics. I'm doing it now, and it does work, if only I stick with it. Good luck to you emoticon
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  • FROGGY80916
    Great blog! I have had a tremendous back slide as well, mainly due to stress overload, and like you I came back to Spark as if I was new. Some tools and habits I implemented, on weekends (mainly Sunday) I prepare meals and partial meals to avoid "eating on the run or from a box". For instance, I precook brown rice for meals, clean all fruits and veggies for meals and put in grab and go containers, prepare herbal teas to use through out the week (I drink 2-3x daily, along with water), always have my work out clothes laid out for the week, and pre plan meals for the week. Also, I put my workouts in my planner as appointments, and hold myself to them.

    Remember, keep your head up, and this is a process, enjoy the journey! And anytime you need a pick up, I am here! emoticon
    2498 days ago
  • BECKY3774
    First off, when I joined spark, you were the FIRST person to contact me, and I hold that close to my heart. I have faith in you, and deep down, so do you. Look at how awesome you are by admitting what has been going on. It would've been so easy to just omit the truth, and we would've never known the difference. That's what says that you're in this for the long haul. So you didn't follow your plan everyday all day for the last however keep coming back. That's what makes us all winners, and winners we are! We didn't gain the weight quickly, and we won't lose it quickly. We gained it because we have a problem choosing the healthier foods when our brains want the "GOOD" stuff. We gained it because we don't measure things, and we don't fully follow portion control all the time. So what does that mean? It means, no matter how many times we trip up in finding our way to a healthy life, all we have to remember is to keep getting back up. Keep coming to Spark. Keep giving it the best you've got!!!! emoticon You have been so awesome with me, and I will NEVER forget hold your head up high, and keep on keepin' on!!! emoticon

    By the way, we do both live in Michigan, right? We can always get together and workout, and help each other through the tough times.....I'm game if you are!!
    2498 days ago
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