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Saturday, July 23, 2011

Troubles, trouble, troubles, troubles is all in the world I see
Troubles, trouble, troubles, troubles is all in the world I see
Oh sometimes I wonder, wonder what is gonna become of me -BB King

So, where do I begin? Is it where my Car died? Nope, not as important. Is it where my Mom is poor in health but healthy enough to cause me hell? Yes. Is it that my Teenage Daughter is going through some phase where she obviously HATES us? Maybe...

I TRY to be positive, but I feel like when is life gonna give me a break? When do things calm down? I am serious. All this negative b.s. has got to go! Sometimes I wanna runaway, but you cant, right? From your problems? They just run a bit faster than you & beat you to the finish line. I see some Patients' who have nothing & are happy as if they owned the Moon. I see some Patients that practically own the Moon who are unhappy.

I dont own the Moon, hell, I practically own anything. But I try my hardest to make the most out of life & where does it get me....here, feeling bad, ridiculous, tedious, helpless, just Posting this stupid rant.

Yesterday, HA! HA!, Yesterday, my Husband painted a Rabbi's Apt. So, A Rabbi walks into an appartment & starts questioning the Wife of a Painter. "What do you do for a living?" I Work for a Doctor, "Are you a receptionist?" No. "Billing collector?" NO! (Which, there is no shame in either Job.) Finally,"What do you do?" Uh, nothing, Dumb-a! I draw blood give shots do blood pressures, write rx's, take down all Patient complaints, take Phone call's & whatever else task they put me through.

UGH! He showed zero respect for me.

Okay, onto the next "Rant". My Mom...who has not been a very good one has been brain washing my Child. She never raised me or my Bro. She wants me to give Alyssa to her. She has been buying her stuff & putting thoughts into her head. I dont let my Daughter run around the neighborhood without me. So, she takes her to her cousins' that get to do whatever they want & she wants that freedom. I understand she is a Teen but it's dangerous out there. So, my Mom told her to make up lies to come live with her.

I apologize for the negative post but venting helps me. I apologize for not being around. My Diet? I haven't been eating much, but my weight is horrible, but I have not been exercising either. I need to get it together. There is a Band, Female, that wants to meet my Daughter Tonight. Hopefully we can make it.

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    Jane! Jane! Jane! It is so good to see you back here. I'm just getting my spark back and I hope we can do it together. You know I think you are one really cool gal and I'm so happy you felt you could come and vent, let out some of the hysteria here! So, that rabbi sounds like an idiot - one you don't want to let have any part of your mind. Let him go - not worth it! Now about your daughter...... She is thirteen! There is no explaining, understanding, grasping or making sense of her pubescent self! You love her. You want the best for her. You have to be patient with her. Accepting of idiotic, dangerous and lying behavior? NO NO NO absolutely not. If anyone around her encourages that behavior - even if it is someone who claims to love her - she or he should not be allowed around her. Teenage years, especially with emotional girls, are a very tough time. As a parent I had to turn into a toughie making decisions my girls didn't always like but that was too bad. Yes, you need to listen to her, let her vent, let her be angry, let her 'hate' you but you sometimes have to let it slide off your back, not take it personally and do what you know is right. I can't tell you how many tears I shed when my girls were that age, when I thought they hated me so much that there was no hope for the future but we all survived. Sometimes you have to be the mean mom but do it with love. I can promise you that one day she will decide that you aren't such a bad person, that you did know what was best for her and she will respect you greatly for it. My daughters are now two of the most incredible people I know and I even dare to say (because I still respect the mother/daughter aspect) they are good friends. Stay strong dear friend!
    3553 days ago
  • GABBY308
    I'm so sorry that you are going through all that. Even if you told that man that you were a doctor, he still probably wouldn't have respected you. Some people are like that. Who cares? His opinion isn't going to change your life one way or the other. Screw him.
    Sounds like you need to put your mother in her place somehow.

    I was in a bad place yesterday and I blogged for the first time in a while. It's good to be able to vent in a safe place, where all your friends support you no matter what - and we do. Hang tough emoticon emoticon
    3553 days ago
    I hope the blogging helpps you feel better and to think through the situations. Sorry that you are experiencing these things. The rabbi I'd just ignore, your mom is another matter and needs to be dealt with IMHO. Easier said than done, I know. I wish you the best of luck. Take care & remain strong.
    3554 days ago
  • JAYJAY44
    We all have days, weeks, months and, God forbid, years (extreme cases) like these. We sometimes feel that it's not even worth getting up BUT, we not only get up, we get through it! Just remind yourself that what you're going through is temporary and before you know it, you'll be through it! God bless you and your family!

    PS - You can rant all you want. That's what we're here for!
    3554 days ago
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