New Layer of Depression

Friday, July 22, 2011

My husband tells me last night that he and his co-workers are heading out tonight for some drinks. He said that he would like for me to get "dolled up"... which at the time, I was 100% okay with. Even though I rarely get "dolled up" (I'm good with hanging out at the local dive, shooting some pool with a good cold beer), I decided to take my lunch break today to do my LEAST favorite thing in the world - clothes shopping... absolutely HATE shopping for clothes! Long story short... I was reminded why I hate shopping so much, and that's because I'm convinced there's not a SINGLE piece of clothing available that looks even remotely good on me! Needless to say, I left with nothing.

After that experience, I'm pretty sure I'll just tell the hubby to go without me. Seriously, who would want to meet their husbands co-workers looking like a walrus?! New brides are supposed to be thin and confident, not look like this! I can just see me walking in there and his co-workers start trying to hide the snickering so I won't see it... or worse tell me that maybe I don't need any Snickers!

And so another layer of depression has arrived. emoticon
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    Just wanted to let you know, I ended up going with him last Friday... and I totally had myself worked up for nothing! Thanks for your comment... it did help!
    3655 days ago
    I know the feeling about walking into a room and thinking everyone is staring at you and thinking horrible things. The difference is I'm thin and people judge me thinking I'm on a 'diet' (of not eating) to be this way. That is their prejudice and their hatred of themselves and it will not change me.

    I tell you this in hopes you will realize that EVERYONE feels this way now and again. If you constantly focus on what others *might* think and hold yourself back because of it, then you are never going to do what you want to do no matter what you look like. The reality is that if someone thinks or says what you believe they will then it is their problem not yours. Chances are they won't! In fact, I bet there will be at least 1 person there who doesn't know you but will think something positive about you - I love those shoes, her hair looks great, I wish I had such a pretty smile. That is what you need to believe in.

    My point is that you can't wait to start living your life until you look the way you believe you should look. Because by then, too much of your life has already passed by.

    I hope next time you go with your husband. Think about this: if he didn't want to show you off he wouldn't invite you. It seems he believes in you - trust his judgement.
    3657 days ago
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