Trust, Once Lost, is Hard to Get Back
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
My DP has been gone for five days at a family reunion. I stayed home to watch our two dogs (one of whom is a "fearful dog.. Yesterday, I went to pick him up - without the dogs.
I turned on the AC in the den, brought in their water dish and closed the door. I knew our bigger dog was comfortable with doors, so she could get outside to do her "business" and out to the kitchen to wait for us to return.
Our little dog hasn't learned about doors yet, so I knew he couldn't get out and get into trouble.
Well, when I got home and let him out, he was timid and shaking. I blamed it on my DP who stormed into the house like a whirlwind. It wasn't his fault. As our dog cringed behind his chair and allowed my DP to pet him, I realized it was me he was afraid of now.
Whenever I approached, he ran. When he looked at me his tail was between his legs. I had lost his trust by locking him into a cage again. Yes it was a larger cage this time, but still a cage where he couldn't escape.
I can barely see these words through my tears. I never meant to hurt him. I told my DP that we needed to be home by 4:00 p.m. to feed the dogs. He said it wouldn't matter if we got home by 5:00 p.m. Turns out it was 5:30 p.m.
It took two months to earn his trust. Now I must start all over again. I feel like a bad "mommy".