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My 1st chemo treatment

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Today I had my first chemo treatment I met with my doctor talked over the treatment and what to expect and realizing in the next 6 months this will be a big part of my life. Going to hospital to get lab work done 3 days before the treatment then going to the treatment itself. Im having to learn to re-adjust my life in how I do things and of course how the chemo is and will be effecting my body. Having to make arrangements at work to take time off for the lab work and the chemo treatment, making sure I take the meds at a certain time, watching my body more closely due to being more prone to germs, what to do if this or that happens, keeping my doctors number and emergency numbers if the slightest thing happens such as developing a low grade fever, feeling fatigued, and losing my hair and buying hats and headscarfs all these things I have to do now to help save my life.

As I went to my treatment and met the nurse that was going to take care of me, setting up the IV stand with all the different medicines that will be going into my body. Starting off with benadryl in case of allergic reactions, anti naseau medicine so I dont throw up, saline solution, then the chemo medication itself all this took most of the day I got there at 8:45am and didnt get home till 4pm. As I sat there going through the treatments you can get up and walk around with your IV stand and me being a trainer its hard for me to sit still, I was glad I could get up and walk around.

The room where I was, was filled with cancer patients some in beds and some in recliners I opted for the recliner, they do a wonderful job in keeping you comfortable through the procedure. As I walked up and down the hallways I looked at the faces of the patients and all there loved ones. Everyone looked tired, exhausted, worried, scared including my family. I thought how blessed I was to know Jesus, to have a relationship with him and to know without a doubt he is with me. I wondered how do people survive without knowing him? How do they get through things like this and not know he is there to help them through it? To call on his name and he will be there, to use the faith that he has given each one of us to lean on him to trust him and to just believe him and his word?

It made me realize just how blessed I am there is no greater gift than knowing Jesus. He is my Joy, my life, He is truly my EVERYTHING I thought to myself whatever the Lords will is for me in this season Im already VICTORIOUS!! I have JESUS he is all I need and while I go through this he has given me the awesome opportunity to praise his name to all or to anyone who will listen. It brings tears to my eyes everytime I talk about Jesus because of his great love for me.

I pray for all of you who read this to realize how much Jesus loves you. The heart of the matter is this:

When you truly find Jesus, when you see in him Glory and Beauty
When you say YES I want Jesus more than anything else
and I dont want to do anything that grieves him, I dont want to do anything that separates me from him, I dont want to do anything that breaks my fellowship with him. I want to go hard after Jesus I want him to know me and me to know him that when my time comes to leave this earth and I stand before him he will smile at me and say "I KNOW YOU, YOU SPENT TIME WITH ME, YOU LOVED ME AS I HAVE LOVED YOU, WELL DONE FAITHFUL SERVANT."

WOW!! cant wait to see my Jesus he is worth everything we go through.

Jesus first

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    look to God...He is our strength...rico emoticon
    2077 days ago
    O my yes! What a beautiful testimony of Jesus that you have. Like Glittergirl has told me often, "you are already healed". That because of your faith and belief in your Savior. No matter what happens now, you are in safe hands. He leads you, guides you and walks beside you.

    You remind me of a special Hymn I love to sing and I would bet is your mantra. "More holiness give me, More strivings within, More patience in suffering, More sorrow for sin, More faith in my Savior, More sense of his care, More joy in his service More purpose in prayer. More gratitude give me, More trust in the Lord, More pride in his glory, More hope in his word, More tears for his sorrows, More pain at his grief, More meekness in trial, More prais for relief. more purity give me, More strength to o'er-come, More freedom from earth-stains, More longing for home. More fit for the kingdom, More used would I be
    More blessed and holy More, Savior like thee.

    God bless you,
    3298 days ago
    Oh Griff, Thank you for posting this. As I read this, I could see you walking in the hallway and Jesus right there, step for step with you. HALLELUJAH! I'm sure God will be using you in such a great capacity there that you won't be able to contain yourself! Praise God! I totally agree with you when you said "It brings tears to my eyes everytime I talk about Jesus because of his great love for me." My heart gets warm and my eyes tear up as well! Oh How He loves us! I love you with the love of the Lord! Glorify God at all times! Take care and God Bless. Rick emoticon
    Enjoy this song.
    3306 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/21/2011 3:44:10 PM
    LOVELY blog ,thanks for sharing JESUS 's love with us . I pray for the best for you . Take care Dottie emoticon emoticon
    3306 days ago
  • SHARON-2020
    Praying for you right now. What a great testimony, only through Christ could you have such peace. emoticon
    3307 days ago
    I am so grateful to be your friend and have you with me in my heart. It was so good to talk to you. After I got off the phone with you I went to the gym, and had a good workout.

    I praised God and thanked HIm for all that He does for you, and all that you do to serve Him.

    I wish I could be there more for you. I know I do things but I feel what I do is not enough, I just wish I could be there with you.

    Dear Jesus thank you for healing my friend and taking care of her. Continue to put her in the places she needs to be to serve and share her love for you. Please continue to be with her mom and the rest of Griff's family. Allow them to see you and your gift through this. In Jesus name I pray amen.

    love you Griff emoticon emoticon
    3307 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/21/2011 2:30:37 AM
    emoticon Yes, He is there with you as you go through the fire. Because He is always faithful. praying for your treatment and recovery. emoticon
    3307 days ago
    I can just picture Jesus walking with you through those halls. I know you will be giving others hope through His love in you.
    3307 days ago
    Ahhh . . . sweetie . . . you are such a warrior! God bless you and keep you and give you strength as you endure these next 6 months! Hugs!
    3307 days ago
  • KAYDE53
    What a beautiful testimony!!! People need the Lord, and what better place to see that than where you were in that treatment center!!! I would just pray that they could all find the "peace that passeth understanding like you have!!! God bless you!! You're in my thoughts & prayers!!! emoticon emoticon
    3307 days ago
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    Oh Sweetheart, how strong you are. How blessed you are. May we all learn from you Sister. My prayers for you for a full recovery.
    3307 days ago
    I just lost my Aunt this weekend to a brain tumor, she fought for 15 months. I am sure she believed in Him and is with Him now. I loved your blog! Her death is still very raw for me so this blog touched me so much!!! Thank you for sharing!!!

    My prayers are with you for a full healing and recovery!!! You can beat this and having Jesus with you is the best medicine!!!

    Keep us posted on your progress:)
    3307 days ago
    Sending prayers your way emoticon
    3307 days ago
    This is a beautiful blog. Thanks so much for sharing Jesus' love with those who may not know him yet. I would be no where without HIM carrying me through and I know you will feel more and more of that during this trial. Praying for you as you go through this and praying for your family as well as they cope as well. (((hugs)))
    3307 days ago
    God bless you...this moved me in such a way this morning. You are in my prayers and I thank you for sharing your heart, and your love of Jesus, with us all. I yearn for an even closer relationship with Him. Amen Carol..
    3307 days ago
    Carol, I just caught up on all your blogs regarding your ordeal and I am so sorry that you are going through this but I am also so thankful that you are not going through this alone but Jesus is by your side all the way!

    Know that I am praying for you am thanking God that you are His daughter and that He cares for you! Stay focused on Him and do what the doctors and nurses tell you. My sister just beat breast cancer so I know that there is hope for you too! Fight the good fight and stay strong-willed; that is the most important thing. Your mindset is everything right now!

    You are not alone as you have numerous spark friends who love you and want you to win this battle!

    Your sister in Christ,

    3307 days ago


    Oh brave and courageous woman of GOD! You speak straight....from the heart! So many will be touched by you and your strong stand on HIS word, proclaiming your V I C T O R Y, in the midst of all you are dealing with!! Your honest approach, and openness to share in total honesty is going to be magnified, as it brings GLORY to our living SAVIOR! I pray daily that you are strengthened, upheld, and held tenderly in HIS loving hands!

    I can see you going through this valley Carol, and I see JESUS walking right beside you, as you hold onto HIS arm for support, HE is smiling sweetly, an actual tear running down HIS sweet face! HE is leading you, step by step, towards the light at the end of the tunnel...your total and complete healing, a clean bill of health, are waiting at the end of that tunnel!! I see you emerge, hands help up high, PRAISING GOD ALMIGHTY!!

    I know you are having many difficult things to face,, and deal with, my friend...I am not sure I could handle it with much grace at all....I am proud of you, your continued stand and FAITH!! I love you my sweet sister in JESUS!!

    Come by my page anytime for a chat!! I am always waiting to hear from you!!

    3307 days ago
    I'm so glad that you are sharing this with us. I know that you will be reaching out to others there and sharing your faith with them. What a beautiful glory to God. I am very pleased to know you as my sister in Christ! Keeping you in my prayers....
    3307 days ago
  • 1GROVES2
    As I read this I realized anew how fortunate I am to have Jesus, too....He is with me always, even through the things I think I am handling on my own! This week-end I had computer computer is old and I am not real savvy as to how things work.....I worried all day Sunday, even while at church I kept thinking how I was going to have thia added exspense of a new computeror of repairs....My husband had a major heart attack in Feb. we bought a new house in May, I have foot problems and dental problems to get can I afford a computer? well...Monday my computer was fine! It is working as new....Jesus even fixes the silly little, not important things!How much more are you to Him than my dumb computer?
    Stay in the arms of Jesus dear friend and you will be safe!
    Blessings to you,
    3307 days ago
    Your blog brought to mind a worship song we sing at church that has the chorus: To know and follow hard after you. That is the cry of my heart, too. You are in my prayers, sis. I love you!
    3307 days ago

    My prayers are with you for a TOTAL healing.
    What you've said is so very, very true. My Dad was just diagnosed with leukemia yesterday. He and my mom are not Believers. I cannot begin to tell you what a tremendous difference it makes.
    God bless you. I admire your spirit, fight the good fight.
    I hope you don't mind my adding you as a friend.
    3307 days ago
    Prayers being sent your way!
    3308 days ago
    I pray that all of the other cancer patients will see the JOY OF THE LORD in you and will seek what you have if they do not know Him personally.
    3308 days ago
  • BIGDAD1211
    He went through some much FOR me, how can I not think that He is going through this WITH me! God's blessings my dear friend. Just finished praying and saw your blog. And I know my prayers are being answered when I asked that He bless you with comfort and peace. And you have that because you put Jesus First! Christ know we are fleshly beings and that we are going to cry, get mad, be afraid and all the other things we human beings tend to do,But that is why he sent us the Comforter, for times like this. So that we don't have to depend on our puny resources but on the power and the might of All Mighty God!!
    God tells us ALL things work together for good to those who love Him and once again His Word proves true.Through your trials , I am learning much about faith and how to trust in God and I thank you and God for the lesson!
    I don't need to tell you my prayers are with you because you already know that but I will anyway.
    God Bless you and as always, Jesus First!!
    In Jesus Name
    3308 days ago
    I am praying for you as you go through this process. God loves you SO much! I am so glad you know this.
    I have a friend who is a heart transplant patient - 13 years so far! He told me that if he hadn't gone through all the stuff involved with that, he would never have had the opportunity (for he and his wife) to talk to so many people and tell them what God has done for them. At church we call him "miracle man" because his life is truly a miracle.
    My prayer for you during this trial is to have as many, if not more opportunities to tell other of the Christ who died (and rose again) for us. May God richly bless you today and every day. HUGS ALWAYS. Nadine emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3308 days ago
    My thoughts and prayers will be with you as you proceed along this journey.
    3308 days ago
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