My 1st chemo treatment
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Today I had my first chemo treatment I met with my doctor talked over the treatment and what to expect and realizing in the next 6 months this will be a big part of my life. Going to hospital to get lab work done 3 days before the treatment then going to the treatment itself. Im having to learn to re-adjust my life in how I do things and of course how the chemo is and will be effecting my body. Having to make arrangements at work to take time off for the lab work and the chemo treatment, making sure I take the meds at a certain time, watching my body more closely due to being more prone to germs, what to do if this or that happens, keeping my doctors number and emergency numbers if the slightest thing happens such as developing a low grade fever, feeling fatigued, and losing my hair and buying hats and headscarfs all these things I have to do now to help save my life.
As I went to my treatment and met the nurse that was going to take care of me, setting up the IV stand with all the different medicines that will be going into my body. Starting off with benadryl in case of allergic reactions, anti naseau medicine so I dont throw up, saline solution, then the chemo medication itself all this took most of the day I got there at 8:45am and didnt get home till 4pm. As I sat there going through the treatments you can get up and walk around with your IV stand and me being a trainer its hard for me to sit still, I was glad I could get up and walk around.
The room where I was, was filled with cancer patients some in beds and some in recliners I opted for the recliner, they do a wonderful job in keeping you comfortable through the procedure. As I walked up and down the hallways I looked at the faces of the patients and all there loved ones. Everyone looked tired, exhausted, worried, scared including my family. I thought how blessed I was to know Jesus, to have a relationship with him and to know without a doubt he is with me. I wondered how do people survive without knowing him? How do they get through things like this and not know he is there to help them through it? To call on his name and he will be there, to use the faith that he has given each one of us to lean on him to trust him and to just believe him and his word?
It made me realize just how blessed I am there is no greater gift than knowing Jesus. He is my Joy, my life, He is truly my EVERYTHING I thought to myself whatever the Lords will is for me in this season Im already VICTORIOUS!! I have JESUS he is all I need and while I go through this he has given me the awesome opportunity to praise his name to all or to anyone who will listen. It brings tears to my eyes everytime I talk about Jesus because of his great love for me.
I pray for all of you who read this to realize how much Jesus loves you. The heart of the matter is this:
When you truly find Jesus, when you see in him Glory and Beauty
When you say YES I want Jesus more than anything else
and I dont want to do anything that grieves him, I dont want to do anything that separates me from him, I dont want to do anything that breaks my fellowship with him. I want to go hard after Jesus I want him to know me and me to know him that when my time comes to leave this earth and I stand before him he will smile at me and say "I KNOW YOU, YOU SPENT TIME WITH ME, YOU LOVED ME AS I HAVE LOVED YOU, WELL DONE FAITHFUL SERVANT."
WOW!! cant wait to see my Jesus he is worth everything we go through.