What was I thinking?
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
I am offically overwhelmed!
What was I thinking? I am registered for 3 races in the next 3 weeks. A run and swim Saturday (and both my girls are doing this one too - isn't that great?!), and a run the following Sunday, and then my very frist Triathlon on 8/7. And its hot. And its summer and my teenager's social life is eating at my sleep. And my 9 year old still likes to come and cuddle in my bed in the middle of the night when she misses her dad or has a bad dream - or just wakes up and wants company. More lost sleep. And did I mention that its hot? Really hot and humid and I am SOOOOOO slow in the heat.
Kids, work, house, physical training, trying to eat right when sometimes I just want to blow it all. There was this fabulous cookie at Panera last evening that I really wanted - fudgey with white chocolate and dark chocolate chunks and walnuts - so yummy looking! Good thing they post the calories - 450! No cookie for me. That's a meal's worth of calories. Sigh.
And I know it wouldn't be easier if I wasn't working so hard on my health and fitness. Exercise is my lifesaver in this UNFAIR (whining and feeling sorry for myself - ooops) life of mine. But I am working so hard - on so many fronts - and the scale won't move, and I still miss my husband, and running the house and the family all by myself is HARD!
I think I need a long hard run...