My Spark is Just Flickering. . .
Monday, July 18, 2011
Recently, due to my not focusing on my goals and some upsetting things in my life I'm not as determined and motivated as I want/need to be to get this weight off and get healthy! I think of myself as a positive person but recent things in my life have me even questioning that about myself.
Over the last couple of months or longer all I've been doing is losing then regaining the same few pounds so I'm mad at myself about that. As, I have all the resources right here on SP, read lots of blogs and articles and find myself wondering why this Journey to get Healthy and Fit has been so hard for me to do. I don't seem to have the Spark like I even did a month ago! I'm happy for my Sp friends who in a year or less take off a significant amount of weight but at the same time it makes me wonder why is it I seem unable to do what is necessary, ie, eat well within my calorie range and exercise more to have WL success myself.
I do track my food and do well until hours after dinner when I get hungry--I know I can't be really hungry as I've eaten a full days worth of calories. It's more of an emotional hunger that I can't get a handle on and it's gotten worse recently. Recently, I did join a small Team that deals with this very issue so I'm praying that it helps me get back on Track.
Being morbidly obese like I am has so many negative health consequences and would be greatly helped by losing weight and exercising. So, when I have all this good information why do I sabotage myself almost every day?? I'm really not sure--maybe I need a Shrink!!
When one of my Teams had a 3 week Exercise Challenge of exercising 30 minutes a day I was so motivated and hardly missed a day of exercising. I even noticed I had more energy and didn't even need my afternoon naps. So, I can't understand why I make so many excuses for myself not to exercise now when I know it makes me feel better both physically and mentally. Do any of you have this problem?
So, today I'm going to take the time to re-evaluate my Sp goals and maybe change or tweak some. What I'm doing is not working well for me so I need to look deep within myself for some answers. I'm also going to re-read the book, The Spark, as it really helped motivate me and make me more determined to get Healthy
I love and enjoy all the wonderful friends I've made on SP--and wouldn't give any of them up as they do support and encourage me. Overall, the biggest success of Sparking for me is my friends and I do feel connected to them as we're all alot alike in wanting to get healthy and more active. Thanks to Sparking and feeling connected to a wonderful Community I am happier than I was before I discovered Spark so that is great success as happiness can't be bought.