Much too much
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I am completely overwhelmed. I'm still sticking to my calories, but I haven't been able to log correctly a couple of times this week. I've already had to drop all other exercise other than gardening. I never get to comment on blogs anymore. I don't have time to immerse myself, support, and be supported....
My garden is beautiful. I love having all of the goodies that come out of it. However, all the hoeing, picking, weeding, trimming, canning, freezing, chopping and everything else that goes with it (which is a lot more) is incredibly time consuming.
Then there's my money situation. We're not just "tight" on money. We're, to put it the only way I know how, are on a slippery slope right now. We can't seem to get a foothold. So I've been couponing. I felt I was doing a pretty dang good job... until I talked to hubby today. He's still upset with the amount I've been spending. I don't get it, I've spent roughly $60 this month on "needs" items (things that aren't bills or food) and I've gotten about $100 worth of things. All from couponing and catching sales. Hours of searching the net for deals, clipping the coupons, scouring sale bills..
I'm feeling defeated. Overwhelmed... drowning more like it. These are the three biggest things going on in my life, and those things on top of raising 3 kids and all of the cooking/cleaning etc. that needs to be done. And I haven't slacked off on my "regular" duties either. Kids aren't going without baths, the lawn is getting cut every week.. I've not even taken the shortcut of putting the laundry in the dryer (still been hanging them on the line). Laundry, might I add, that has STAYED caught up! I've been doing it all! But it doesn't seem like it's enough. It never is...
And guess who's having to go onto the back burner again? Yeah. Me. Again. Including my health. I'm still eating pretty well... it's ingrained into me now. I'm still active. Haha that's funny! Who wouldn't be with all that to do! I know to some it may not seem like much, and granted there are things that I, of course, didn't mention, but it IS a lot. And then to top it all off my hubby is saying that I lasted longer than he thought I would with "all that health stuff". And also, "I told you the garden would be too much for you." I started the garden so we could save money! Oh and, "Don't complain, you're the one who wanted the clothes line." Again, trying to save money.
Now don't get me wrong, I have a wonderful hubby. If you don't believe me, go back in my blogs and you'll find me mentioning how great he is. He's just... pessimistic, and well, he thinks some things I get aren't needs. Like fabric softener. Or lean ground beef instead of the cheaper stuff. I know we could do without those things, and sometimes I wonder if he's right. Maybe I should just stop buying stuff like that. I don't know anymore. All I know for sure is that I need a break. Badly.