Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Motivation is the fuel that drives us toward what it is we seek. It is what keeps us going when we don't feel like continuing. It is the FIRE that keeps propelling us forward on this journey.
This is what I tell myself when my life keeps getting in the way. My job isn't going to change any time soon. I am going to be doing more work for the same pay for the foreseeable future. I am not going to let this stop me. I am reaching my goals. I am motivated.
When I come home from work and the house is thrashed from lazy teenagers, messy dogs, and a husband who doesn't see the mess, I am not going to be upset. I am not going to let their thoughtlessness stop me. I am motivated.
Fighting kids. Not going to let them stop me. I will turn my ipod up to tune them out. I am motivated.
The unhelpful, unsupportive husband. Won't help with chores, kids. Not going to let it stop me. Not anymore. I am motivated. I am worth it.
Pain running down my leg? I have another leg. Not going to let it stop me. I am going to work through it. I am motivated.
For YEARS I have searched for that elusive fire. I have searched for the motivation to keep going in spite of it all. Now that the torch is lit within my soul, I will carry it with the dedication of an olympic runner, keeping the flame lit until I light the brazier of my goal. I AM MOTIVATED.
My motivation comes from a heated desire to want better, to be a better me. At the age of 36, I am seeking a purpose for myself. WHY am I here? Am I a glorified housekeeper and nanny....or am I a fierce woman who also happens to be a wife and mother? I am a PERSON who deserves to reach my goals. No one is going to do it for me.
*I* have to be the fire in the torch I carry. I am ready. I am motivated....