Monday, July 11, 2011
Today I had to go back to the Seidmans Cancer Center in Cleveland Ohio to attend a chemo class where we would meet the nurse who will be taking care of us during our chemo treatments. My sister and my mom went with me and there were two other ladies there with there loved ones for support. We met and discussed what we all have been recently through and I could see the fear, the pain and the uncertainty in both there eyes and the question of can this truly be happening to me?? Will this work?? The same questions and fears that I have its the uncertainty of will this work?? Dont know but its something we must go through to make sure all the cancer is gone.
The nurse came in and gave us each a HUGE BINDER of cancer information and she went through each one. It started off with:
The health care team
Basic cancer information
Family and friends
During the middle of all this I started to tear up I couldnt hold it in so I just let it flow...I wanted her to stop I just wanted to cover up my ears and say PLEASE STOP!! So much information so much to think about so much to wonder about SO MUCH TO TAKE IN!! So I quietly prayed and asked Jesus to give me strength to get through the class. I went to the ladies room to talk to the Lord to gather the strength I needed from the Lord and I just took a moment to praise his name..To thank him for his perfect love for me and for all the prayers from all of you and for placing me with such wonderful doctors and nurses who are taking care of me.
So as the class went on the nurse answered all of our questions and calmed all our fears as best as she could. Then the dietician came in and went over the diet and nutrition part of being placed on chemo. It was very informative especially on what to do when the white blood counts go low and what your body will be experiencing during that time. Then two other nurses came in and we all split up each nurse was assigned to each one of us and we had our one on one session with them. Mine went over the chemo treatment that I will be having it will be done intravenously. It will start next Tuesday and 3 weeks after that for 6 cycles. She told me about the side effects mostly will be fatigue and hairloss. The nausea part of it is pretty much taken care of through the chemo treatment and the meds she will be prescribing to me.
At the end of the class we all got together and we all hugged one another wished each other well said a lot of positive things to one another and went home. It has been a long day a day that makes me think how Jesus went the distance for us he never wavered, he never complained, he took the cross and went the distance for us..Now its my turn to go the distance to run this race to see this through to not allow fear and doubt to come upon me to stand and fight and to remember:
1 Corinthians 9:24
"Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize."
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us"
So when you come face to face with your storm or trials of this life stand and go the distance with Jesus. Its hard, no doubt but Jesus promises us that he is there for us cling to him, run to him, go the distance with him and your journey will be complete!! Now isnt that what its all about??