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Monday, July 11, 2011

Back to campus for Summer II term today. Ho-hum, I’ll keep an open mind but the first day was blah.

This is my easy term that includes a required PSY “Self-Assessment and Career Planning” class at 8:00 am followed by ART “Photographing People”, my last elective, at 11:30 am.

There are a measly 9 people in the PSY class, one a self-professed loud-mouth, and the professor. The professor gave a brief bio, he’s (a YOUNG) 31 and says we can call him Eric but he really gets a kick out of “Dr. Mania”(!!). He said he was extremely pleased to find he loved psychology, thought it was fitting given his surname, and said, “You KNOW I had to get the PhD to complete the deal!” Hehehe…
Unfortunately, the talker wasn’t kidding and really took over the controls, which weren’t effectively wrestled back, a number of times. The professor needs some teeth. So the first class, required but easy, seems like it will be painful in a different way.

For some silly reason, I was thinking Fall schedule and thought I’d be out of there shortly after lunch so didn’t pack one. Ooops! I had ten minutes at 11:20 am to run to the café and look around. Found a tossed salad with ½ a hard-boiled egg. Sold! No time to eat it till after class but I had it.

There were about 12 people in the photography class. The professor actually looks like my granddad, and he told us he’s 83!! OK. I’ll buy that! Big, white eyebrows and all! GAH! He was fine other than he talks very slowly and sometimes trails off altogether *insert that emoticon with surprised wide eyes right about here* !!
Nope! Not kidding! Suddenly, the fingers come to life on the podium and he starts talking again. His first camera was a Brownie Scout. I am looking forward to the assignments he’s got planned and he does seem like he’ll be a good critic.

So Monday and Wednesdays this term. We’ll see…..

Thing are going well with my Sparkplan. I am in off-the-charts-for-me waters weight-wise and very pleased, yet sort of scared too. I don’t think I’ve been this weight since high school. Unfortunately, my mom is getting to me with the “you’ve lost too much weight” *bleep* and I am turning paranoid about my body. Stupid thoughts are creeping in due to old health stuff, and now I have a lump. Yup. Now, I am not freaking because I get a recall almost every mammo, but due to the loss (NOT rapid, we’re talking 1.38 lb per week average since January) and continued loss, well, my boobs are almost gone. Hence, the lump from he11 shows up visibly and now looks all sorts of scary thanks to Mom, and, “You’ll get sick”. I am seeing my regular doc Thursday, to get the order to go for the diagnostic ultrasound/mamo on Thursday.
So, mostly fun with the journey, and I’m totally digging my eating – getting there with exercise, and just some scary times because I’ve just never worked hard enough to actually get here before and I’m scared. OK, said it.

I had to dust this one off, as I heard it on the way home from campus. It’s definitely a windows-down sunny day summer song. This is my cover of Sister Golden Hair Surprise. Let’s GO, SPARK PEEPS!!

“Sparking Healthy Girl Surprise”

Well I tried to work out Sunday, but I got so damn depressed
That I set my sights on Monday and I got myself undressed
I aint ready for the Bow-flex but I do agree there’s times
When a treadmill sure can be a friend of mine

Well, I keep on thinkin bout you, oh, my Sparkpeople Allies
And I just can’t live without you; can’t you see it in my thighs?
I been one poor exerciser, and I been too lazy to ride
But it doesn’t mean it aint been on my mind

Will you meet me in the weight room, will you meet me in the gym?
will I work out just a little; when its warmer will I swim?
Well I tried to fake it, but those fad diets, just won't make it

Well, I keep on thinkin bout you, oh, my Sparkpeople Allies
And I just can't live without you; no, I don't want extra fries
Now I been one poor healthy eater, but I've set my sights real high
So I guess it means, I need Sparksters by my side

Will you meet me at Aerobics, will you meet me for a walk?
Will we someday run the 5K? it's our time to truly rock!
Well I tried to fake it, I don’t mind sayin, we're gonna make it !!!!!

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    OK so yay on school. Can't wait to hear how the psych class goes! And am looking forward to seeing lots of pictures.

    But the song.....oh the song!! HOW FUN WAS THAT!!! I was sitting here just singing and singing and laughing and singing!
    What a wonderful job!!

    As for the health scares, I understand where you're coming from. But I feel confident that all will be well. Bless your mom....I'm sure she's coming from a well meaning place but still. Why is it so wrong to say to someone "Wow, you've really put on a lot of weight and look awfully fat!" but it's ok to tell someone they've lost too much weight and are too thin! I'm not dealing with this issue YET but my sister-in-law is and it frustrates her to no end.

    You'll be in my prayers and I know everything will be fine but be sure and keep us up to date!
    Will you meet me at Aerobics, will you meet me for a walk?
    Will we someday run the 5K? it's our time to truly rock!
    Well I tried to fake it, I don’t mind sayin, we're gonna make it !!!!!
    3017 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your nervousness and fear about approaching your target weight. I have hesitated here, half way to my goal, due in part to feeling unworthy and just so different. Thank you for talking about it!

    The first day of classes is just first impression time. It may not be so bad once everyone settles in. Or at least it is a summer session and it will go fast.

    LOVE the song. Made me smile, and (((HUGS)))) on the test. My mom was a big button pusher. She has been gone for 5 years now and I do miss the good (but not so much the bad ;)

    3017 days ago
    Hahaha, love the lyrics. One of my favourite songs.

    Mmmm. Fear. F-Everything And Run. Keep blogging. Moms mean well. Mine makes such a big deal about my weight loss every time she seems me it is embarrassing... especially since I don't have a regular weight loss. At least she is not telling me I have lost too much weight, but she is very public about it and I just want to be accepted as I am today unconditionally. Sigh. Mothers.

    You do have a lot on your plate but I think you are moving constanntly in the right direction. What did I read today? "It is scientifically proven that an object in motion will stay in motion". So keep moving! You are doing great... and great blog. You have lots to dump here!
    3017 days ago
    Ha! You're the best, Ms Melly! Love the song.

    Boy, I'll bet you weren't expecting that particular emotion to emerge with your weight loss. Glad you're seeing your doctor...remain positive and IN THE MOMENT. Just take one thing at a time and see where it goes. You're going to be just fine, I'm sure. Mom's can really be an emotional trigger, can't they?

    Congrats on the continued success! And post some of those pics you take in class.
    3017 days ago
    Love your spin on the song Melly! And Cindidit said it all. You go girl!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3017 days ago
    Love the song.
    Get your test asap so you have less worry time, I think the lumps show up easier without the fat barrier, speaking as someone whose breasts are also getting very small.
    You lost weight because you got smart, ate healthy, increased your movement and dont let anyone take that away from you, you hear me?
    Yes it is scary.
    Moms will always worry.
    (and say things)
    (and push our buttons)
    because they know the buttons to push. How many times does a women go on a diet, start seeing success and stop out of fear and insecurity. I have. I still fight it this journey too.
    You look wonderful, fit, strong, healthy, capable, empowered.
    We are here when you have doubts.
    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3017 days ago
    Well the school stuff sounds like there won't be a dull moment this semester! Definitely get things checked out. Better to be safe than sorry. Don't second guess your plan. People always say that you've lost too much weight when you're getting close to your goal weight. Kind of makes you want to say "you didn't say anything when I was at my heaviest so no commenting when I finally get to a HEALTHY BMI please!" ;)

    Don't be afraid of success. You deserve it. You've worked for it. Revel in it!
    3017 days ago
    I would love to take a photography class - maybe next summer. I thought I was taking a
    Web 2.0 class, but it was canceled. Dang it.

    Keep us posted on the mammogram situation. Been there, done that, and it IS scary. Oh, and if you feel good and your doc says you are healthy, don't worry about the opinions of others (even moms).

    3017 days ago
    My goodness, you have a lot on your mind! (And your mom is NOT helping!) Please try to take it one day at a time, okay? One good thing about the U.S. healthcare system is that it is ALWAYS there to followup on all things suspicious. While it makes for a scary ride, it is good news and will serve you well no matter what the outcome. And the statistics are on your side: most lumps turn out benign. As you said, this isn't new for you, so just hang tough and know that you lost weight due to your hard work, nothing else. YOU made the choice. And you lost the weight for better health. And you didn't just lose weight, you changed your whole approach to eating and health. That is huge! You are finally "home" and of course you are going to worry about how long you will be able to stay in your new home. I think it's a common fear. But you made the choice and you aren't leaving it any time soon! So, keep that positive attitude, walk into doctor's office Thurs. knowing you are fine, fine, fine and that this is just one little annoyance you have to deal with for a little while. This too shall pass.

    It sounds like you will have an interesting term in between the young one, the loud one and the old one. Some terms are better than others! But I guess the silver lining is that the summer term is at least an accelerated one, so the torture will be over sooner. Ha! Seriously, I hope you find some things to enjoy in both classes.

    I love the song! Creative as usual, Melly! I especially like the line, "No, I don't want extra fries." Ha!

    Hang in there, friend!
    3018 days ago
  • JULIE4287
    Your Sis Golden Hair cover is hilarious! L-O-V-E it! lol
    Good luck with school starting again! I'm a college student, and (really) can't wait for classes to start up again in the fall. Good luck with the mammogram and I hope all is well for you.

    3018 days ago
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