Another New Beginning- My Story
Monday, July 11, 2011
I have never really been satisfied with the way I look. Always having pretty friends, sisters and a mom who are in shape. I tried (in vain) to change things, but I didn't have the right tools or knowledge to do so, however in May 2009, that all changed.
I was finally fed up with how I looked, I hated looking at pictures of myself and looking in the mirror and just thinking, "well thats as good as youre gonna look." There were so many different kinds of clothes that I wanted to wear but didn't because it made me look fat or it didn't look good. However, in May of 2009, I decided that this was going to change, I was determined to get into shape. I started out by going to YMCA group fitness classes with my mom.
These classes were way way beyond my expertise of exercise, but as the summer went on (while I was home from college), I saw myself getting stronger and losing weight. I started eating healthy and seeing the benefits of simple exercise and healthy eating. Once I moved back to my college town, it was a little harder to get in the groove of everything being on my own without having my mom there to push me to do my best, but I did it. That few months, I lost about 15-20 lbs. I never felt better.
Fast forward to May 2011......I haven't lost any weight, I'm at the same weight level that I was at before. I did lose a few inches off of my hips due to being in Spain and walking everywhere for 3 months, but back in Iowa, I don't have the same walking patterns. I have just come to a standstill in my weightloss. I have lost the motivation that I had two years ago and find myself calorie counting and not eating because I don't want to have those calories in my body, and finding myself always hungry. I find myself eating less and less healthy because "I'll work out later, so it doesn't matter" but I know thats just an excuse.
I hope by starting this program that I can use the meal plans and trackers to finally lose the last of the weight that I need to in order to gain the self confidence I once had. Sometimes I just can't look at myself in the mirror and I know what I need to do, it's just finding the motivation to do so.