Are you a non-stop food tracker?
Saturday, July 09, 2011
Has anyone ever watched this show called 'Being Erica'? I'm really enjoying it. A girl has SO many regrets in her life and through time travelling (!) therapy she finds a way to deal with them.
I feel watching the series that I don't ever want to feel regretful. I have been and can be at times, but never do I want to let it gnaw away at me.
At the moment I am facing a dilemma... I feel that Sparkpeople has helped me so much, but that I also do not want to be too dependent on it because essentially, this is about a lifestyle, one that I want to maintain even if I were to live in the mountains in the middle of nowhere. So at the moment I have found tracking my food, or more like, the motivation to track my food impossible on that basis. Inside of me, there is a desire so strong to want to be able to do this ALONE and feel confident by myself. Does that sound familiar to any of you guys?
That said, in order for my fitness regime and my yoga practices to go well, I need to be able to write them down and make sure I log them in. That I am finding quite easy because I am so proud of myself! For the moment, I am trying to save money which means that I am not always in my flat, instead I am living with my boyfriend's dad and brother and in the house there is always a very random mix of stuff. Some days we can have a chick peas casserole with rice and green beans, other days it's fishing the pizza and chips from the freezer. It's completely random and although I can ask his dad to buy specific things, I just don't want to be a burden and to seem picky. So...tracking food is hard for me...
I am trying to judge it myself which at times can be very very challenging. The most important thing I feel though is having my inner voice to tell me - you can eat that but DO NOT OVERDO IT! That has really been helping. Especially with the alcohol consumption which can also be difficult when there is so much to celebrate - like this evening, it's my sister's birthday, last week it was Summer party, the week before, my results etc etc. But food (rather than alcohol) is a daily thing and much more difficult to manage. What I feel is vital at the moment, is that I am not pushing my stomach to the point of being overfull, but the issue is still that I am not eating 'right' all the time which means I cannot necessarily lose the weight I want to.
So, in part, this whole thing explains a little why I didn't come by on Spark for a long time and also why trakcing my food every week has not worked itself out in a LONG time (I think the longest I've tracked in the last 3 months, has been 3 weeks...). That said, I really want to be on Spark and I want to hear about other people's stories and also have some feedback from what I say.
Anyway, a little bit of a confusing blog for a Saturday morning - hey-ho!
I've been applying for jobs EVERYWHERE (and this time, although it pays well, REFUSE to do admin work), so I had an answer back from a sushi place and a really nice Bombay Cafe- I'm having my trial on Monday for the Bombay cafe and REALLY wanna get in. Check it out! http://dishoom.com/
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