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Fear of gym's...

Friday, July 08, 2011

I have always had a fear of gyms.. 3 years ago I bought a membership to a local gym that had a woman's only section. I did expect that I would meet and see other over weight woman there. After 3 weeks I was still the largest one! Only perfect dainty girls who read a magazine while walking a normal pace on a treadmill for 20 min and left. I was jealous I'll admit! Every time I went I hated the mirrors because of how I look when I work out hard ( beet red face, sweaty and chub jiggling ) and mostly how everyone is checking each other out. I always got negative, very self conscious and embarrassed of my body. The fat girl on a treadmill...

Today, I went to a Gym. No woman's section, lots of mirrors and I got enough anxiety that I procrastinated for 2 hours today. When I got there, there was not another soul and I had the gym all to myself, I went hard on cardio machines for 1 1/2 hours :) I feel great!

When I thought about how much I let that silly fear of what other people thought of me control my actions, I was ashamed.. If I continued 3 years ago I would have not been a fat girl on treadmill today! I also would have put the 2 hours wasted on my day off to good use!

I am proud of myself that I took a step forward and was ready to face my fear. I am worried that I will fall back into negativity when there will be people around!

Am I the only one who feels like this? If you also do I would love for you to introduce yourself!

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  • FITWITHIN
    We all are at the gym to better ourselves. Don't worry about or think everybody is watching you. You go to the gym keep doing the best you can to improve yourself. I love going to the gym. Keep up the good work! emoticon job!
    3423 days ago
  • A1WAYZSMI1ING
    You girls are great and thank you! I will read your comments before going to the gym and when coming back if I need the boost! Eshara you made a good point that I outa be happy to have the opportunity to go! That is pricey! Is there other gym's near you? It is $537/ yr here! Much more afordable.
    Camille
    3426 days ago
  • ESHARA43
    I had won a free months membership to Curves gym and went everyday but after that i quit b/c it would cost me 400.00 dollars a month. I wish I could join a gym again but the money just isn't there for me to do so.
    3426 days ago
  • LISABOULDER
    You're not the alone on this. I've totally been there. When I lost weight the first time I went to a gym and got into pretty good shape. Sadly, I stopped working out and gained the weight back (I'm at it again). The only reason I mention this is that when I was in good shape, I went to a spinning class and there was a woman there who was bigger and had some weight to lose. I admired her so much. She worked her tail off and showed up every time.

    I admire you as well. Please keep going to the gym.
    3426 days ago
  • MRSNUTHAK
    I'm totally there with you. I had anxiety on my drive to the gym today. I parked myself on a treadmill at the front of the section so I couldn't see others looking at me...haha. Now I just need to get the nerves to go back.
    3426 days ago
  • SETAGOAL1
    Don't give up on yourself. You are the only one that can make it happen for you. You have the power to succeed or fail.

    You have choosen to succeed.
    emoticon

    Janet
    3426 days ago
  • LESS_IS_MO
    How awesome! I used to go the YMCA daily at about 10:30 am. I found it was an amazing time to work out. THere'd be tons of old folks there. Oh sure, there were some gym rats there too, but mostly just super-average people and I never felt out of place of stared at. Mo
    Good for you! emoticon
    3426 days ago
  • TEACH2READERS
    Way to go on conquering your fear!!!!
    3426 days ago
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