one little step at a time and a public thank you note
Friday, July 08, 2011
Well, since lack of time seems to be one of my major issues these days, I thought I would say one great big thank you to you folks that responded with all your encouraging words to my blog yesterday. Just to be clear, I wasn't really saying I wanted to be a triathelete, I was just describing the blog that had inspired me to write my own blog yesterday.
What I was trying to say is that I talk all the time about doing this, but my actions don't always show that I am willing to do the work necessary to reach my goals. It's easy to talk about getting it done, but not nearly as easy to do it. It was a call to action to myself to shut up and do it. I'm not being mean to myself, just reminding myself that no one but me can do it, and that the time is now.
What I do know is that the most important part of doing this is living in the moment and taking baby steps towards success. I have always known this..call it baby steps, call it streaking, call it "take it one day, one hour, one minute at a time," but ultimately, it is about moving forward regularly, even if you can barely see the forward.. It is about putting it all together. Exercise, though I haven't been as consistent in the past weeks as I have been, still gets done more than anything, but for some reason, even on a day that I have exercised hard, at some point, usually at night, that horrible eating starts and I feel helpless to stop it. And baby steps don't work when you take them forward all day and than take giant steps backwards at night.
So that is my challenge, it has been for a very long time. And it is very frustrating that I know it and have known it and that I still haven't solved it. For some folks, once they figure out what their challenge really is, it's their eureka moment.. But clearly, just knowing my challenge isn't enough for me.. I have always been a big believe in the saying "actions speak louder than words." And as I look at my actions, I realize that if that saying is true, then all my words about wanting to get this done are not and cannot be true, because if I really wanted to get this done, I would have found a way to stop the night time eating...
I wrote a long time ago that I believed my night time eating was a left over habit from long ago settled issues that had just reappeared. I honestly and truly still believe that to be true, but I have not found the replacement for that bad habit..
But I do have one kernel of good news: I did not night time eat last night. No magic formula, I just consciously did not put myself in a position to do it, and therefore I didn't do it. Night one, down. Today is another day...