Friday, July 08, 2011
So, I have 12 weeks left before dance camp and I have done practically nothing for the past 2 weeks. The only positive thing I can say is that I have identified triggers and possible reasons for my lapse - perhaps if I can find solutions to the underlying issues I will be able to continue forward.
Here's how the past 2 weeks have played out- last week I paid for sending the kids to camp by getting a lovely summer cold, should have been able to push through it, but I have never been one to do much with mucus and chills.
This week has been all about the hormones. I need to get back on the pill because I go into a horrific depression/ binge eating spree the week before my period. Not sure if this is normal or not, but I know that it was controlled much better when I was on a pill that kept me from having a period only 4 times per year. This week has been particularly bad- lots of financial difficulties- it just seems like we can't catch a break this year AND my one of my kitties passed away today (nasty, nasty day). I am not making excuses, I am trying to learn from these set backs.
To combat the hormone issue I will make an appointment with the doctor ASAP, if I can get back on the pill that should help the monthly problem.
As for the financial difficulties, I'm sort of at a loss. We just can't seem to keep up with everything, I am completely deflated because the debt consolidation program that is a big chunk of money was supposed to be finished this month, turns out they didn't completely do their job and I have an additional 21 month left in the program. I am very bitter about this and I just have to let the anger go and continue on (not that I am going to not talk to my brother the lawyer) but the resentment and anger over this is really not doing anyone any good. Also the stress of now not having that additional freed income is unbearable. We just seem stuck, but I have to figure it out because it is not worth sabotaging my health over....
Sorry- I know this is poorly written and not very happy reading but it does help to get it out... and did I mention what a craptastic week it has been.....