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Can I Afford to Wait for My Lightbulb to Click??

Thursday, July 07, 2011

Today's Daily Spark contained a great blog about a member who has lost over 100 lbs and has become a triathlete during his Spark Journey. He says in his blog that he first had to decide that he wanted to do it, and only then could he consider how to do it, and that as his journey has evolved, so has the how to do it, he called it "doing what it takes" to succeed. So one day, his lightbulb clicked, and his steps forward began.

This was an awesome blog, and one that has dovetailed preceisely with my frame of mind these days. For all my talk (although lately I've been pretty outwardly quiet, but there is plenty of chatter in my head) of how much I want to lose this weight once and for all, clearly the eating I do, the exercise I don't do, says I'm not ready. I so do not want to be one of those people who put it off and put it off and put it off until some real health scare puts me in the hospital or worse, to then look back with regret upon the time I've wasted. But at this particular point in my life, I am afraid that is exactly the road I am headed on.

So I guess I just wanted to say all this out loud, to say that I am waiting for my lightbulb to go off, waiting to be ready. And I will continue to think about all the reasons I need to complete this journey to begin with..mostly, to be able to see my son grow up, to be here for him. Should be reason enough. Was that a click I just heard??
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  • _RAMONA
    I hear you, Tina... I'm struggling between fits of hyper enthusiasm (my thinking and desires get me going) and despair (and then the realities of what is before me in every respect sets in, and I crash in an overwhelmed, self-soothing heap)... in every area of my life. This quote keeps running through my head:

    "Habit isn't about acts of heroism. It's about establishing a consistent, almost automatic pattern of behavior over time. Much of the challenge of successful self-discipline is throttling your enthusiasm so you don't burn out. Keep the focus on meeting some clearly-defined, rigorously unambitious daily "good enough." AUTHOR UNKNOWN

    The trouble is I can't find that sweet spot of 'good enough' with any consistency... I know that's all it would take. Again, I see it as a victory that at least I haven't gained weight in three years, and I'm stronger and healthier, but I'm also terrified that it's not enough, and I'm headed for a crisis I may never recover from fully.

    SIGH.
    SIGH.
    SIG
    H.

    Sorry, Tina... it's all I've got... I wish I could be more helpful (you always have this way of pressing on the one nerve I'm trying to ignore). Maybe just being 'outward' today is what we both need.

    Love ya!
    {{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}}
    Ramona


    P.S
    . I also HATE how Spark keeps putting HTML code into my typing... it doesn't matter where on this site I comment... something looks fine when I'm done typing, but once it posts it's wonky... It's driving me NUTS!
    3433 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/7/2011 1:12:30 PM
  • MISSDIANE1
    I agree with MaryAnn, being a triathlete is not for everyone. I am happy just being able to walk and do my Wii. You have to want to do this for you.

    Look inward and ask God for guidance.

    You can do this Tina, I know you can. You have so much to offer, offer it to yourself.

    I'll be praying for you friend.

    Love,
    Diane
    3433 days ago
  • MUSICMOMOF2
    Tina,
    Hang in there! You seem to be one of those that does great for a little while, then "life" gets in the way (especially with the exercise) and you fall off. You have been really busy lately and I'm sure that continues to add to that cycle. You can do this! I know that you can! Just remember that we are here to urge you along when you need it.
    3433 days ago
  • MARYANNGI
    Soometimes the lightbulb is already on, but just a bit dim! Or maybe you just have a shade on that bulb emoticon . I have seen how much exercise you have logged during the Spring Challenge (remember me, your challenge leader emoticon ). If you don't believe me then just take a look at these numbers for the total challenge:

    Total Exercise Minutes: 6,125 (avg. 766 per week)
    Total Living The Good Life Points: 750 (avg. 94 per week)

    And the Exercise is only being able to log 120 minutes a day! So take that shade off. You are doing great! Not every person is a triathlete. Running is not for everone, but you may enjoy Zumba or swimming. Each of us has different things that we enjoy, and/or are good at.

    Glad that you ae joining us for the next challenge. Maybe the Spirited Underdogs can have a min-challenge to see how many exercise minutes each of us is actually putting in. Think of all of those days spent weeding the garden, or Spring cleaning!!! How does that sound??

    MaryAnn
    3433 days ago
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    3433 days ago
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