Why I Need to be Here, Now.
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
It's been a bit of a struggle these past couple of weeks! I know I've shared this here already, but food has been a little messy lately. Although I'm active enough that I can eat a good deal and "get away" with it, this doesn't mean that this is what I SHOULD do or really WANT to do to my body. Food has been a struggle for me most of my life, something I "use" to avoid feelings I don't want to feel or deal with, a destructive sort of crutch that I've worked hard to get away from. And lately, I find myself turning back to the food--definitely to avoid feeling some things and working on things I need to work on.
Staying present to feelings can be hard! But I need to do it. It is, by far, the most fulfilling, the most simple, and the most unfettered way for me to live, even when it's difficult or unpleasant.
And the good news is, I don't have to work through it all alone! :-) Among other lovely and strong support systems, I have this community. I definitely need to be present to it more regularly right now as I work on this next step.
Hope all is well with you and yours, sparkfriends.