I have been working hard toward my goals. I have been burning THOUSANDS of calories. This past 4th of July weekend, I burned over 3000 calories a day doing things I LOVE with people I LOVE. To climb on the scale and cry today over the number today is SABOTAGING what I want to be, and that is healthy.
I don't know why the scale isn't moving in the downward direction as it should be. I can honestly say that based on calories in/calories out, it should be...and quite steadily I might add. Some people say it is muscle, some say it is water retention, some say I must be eating thousands of calories and not logging it.
I am becoming OBSESSED and DEPRESSED over this. I don't want to be photographed. I don't want to feel this way any more....and all because of the scale.
I am proud of many things I am doing.
I am eating fruits, veggies, HEALTHY foods.
I am exercising DAILY.
I am sitting less.
I am drinking water.
So, for the rest of the month of July, my goal is to put the scale away. I am not setting one toe on that scale. Not naked, not in that "special" corner of the bathroom that gives me the "best" weight. I am sick of the feeling I get right before a weight. Almost like a drug addict guiltily waiting for the coming fix. At this point, the scale is NOT being for me what it is intended.....a tool for measurement. It is becoming my torture device. It is being that negative voice inside of me saying that I cannot reach my goals.
Here are my July goals:
1. Continue to measure my portions and track meals on SP.
2. Continue to get 30 minutes of some sort of exercise everyday, such as a walk after dinner.
3. Continue to drink water.
4. Continue to wear my bodybugg everyday.
5. Say one positive thing about myself TO myself out loud every morning.
6. Not cringe at myself in a photo.
Life is too short to be this crazy over the scale. Please show your support to me this month. I think I will need it.