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Weird mental block -- KAPOW!

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

I came home so tired today. Not enough sleep last night, then a crash after too much caffeine. At 9:30 I forced myself to play the cello so that I could finish by 10 and not disturb the neighbours past a reasonable hour.

Didn't want to do it, but did it anyway. Just played some songs I know pretty well. AND IT WOKE ME UP! Why do I forget how the cello TRANSPORTS ME INTO ANOTHER EMOTIONAL STATE?

I think of it as something I SHOULD do, so I resist a little. And when I finally force myself, I LOVE IT SO MUCH. What is the deal with the whole resisting, procrastinating and forgetting how good it makes me feel? What is the freaking deal with that? WHAAAAAAAAAT IS UP WITH THAT??????

Sorry for yelling, but I'm all perky from the cello and totally perplexed by my own ridiculous mental patterns!

And I think there is a lesson to be learned about exercise here.....

I swear I'll figure it out someday. I'm not dumb -- just very stubborn and a little slow sometimes. emoticon
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    Ahhhhh...so you PLAY the cello. No wonder you're partial to it! I love music too. I'm picking up another undergrad degree, in Spanish language, and I am minoring in music! Haven't decided whether to emphasize voice or piano.
    3250 days ago
  • HEATHER1969
    I think we all think that way.... its just so darned hard to make ourselves do it but once we are in the throws we are LOVING IT and wondering why it was so hard to make ourselves get to it...... crazy mentality that we must turn around! emoticon
    3318 days ago
    You WILL figure it out emoticon
    3321 days ago
    I am the same way. Even though I love certain things, I still feel like it's a chore to do it because I HAVE to do it. I'm not sure what it is that I (we) need to do to see it as the fun thing it really is. Maybe when one of us figures it out, we can help each other with it. lol
    3322 days ago
  • CATS_MEOW_0911
    Playing an instrument is totally "instrumental" to our well-being! I picked up my alto sax again a couple of weeks ago (I blogged about it,too)...I forgot how much I love it.
    3322 days ago
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