Monday, July 04, 2011
I AM AN EMOTIONAL OVER-EATER!!
Trust me, this is NOT just about the negativity in life. It's also about celebrating the good things that life throws your way.
Think about this....
How many 'work meetings' have you attended where they did NOT provide food or drink?
How often do you gather with friends or family and your time together is NOT centered around "what shall we eat"?
My negative emotional eating blocked my pain, sadness, abuse, discomfort, boredom, loneliness and insulting comments.
But I also dealt with positive emotions, like: celebrating a raise, getting a promotion, starting a new job, having another birthday, reaching a milestone, the sun shined, the wind blew, I received a compliment....
I think you get the point I'm trying to make ~ I ate and I didn't know how to stop!!
While home-bound this past winter, my best friend was bringing me groceries. He never questioned what was on my list, until that one day when he noticed the bag of cereal I had ordered from the previous week had been consumed.
He commented, "that bag had 15 servings and it's gone?"
I replied, "you've known me for over 30 years and you never knew that I was an emotional over-eater?"
OMG ~ what did I just declare? Not only had I acknowledged my problem, but I said it OUT LOUD???
It truly was a baby step forward onto my healthy journey. I recognized my fault, acknowledged it and then shouted it from the roof-top!!
Let the healing begin....
At that moment I realized I didn't have the temptations involved with grocery shopping ~ you know those little tidbits that always manage to jump into your cart, but are never on your shopping list.
I seized the opportunity and the next list did NOT contain: crackers, pizza, or sugar-coated cereal. Gradually the list grew to include: fresh fruit, fresh veggies, and healthy meat like chicken and fish.
On one delivery he even mentioned "how proud he was of me" and I didn't automatically shove food in my mouth. I just blushed and said, "Thank you!"
FEELING EMOTIONS ~ what a new concept!!!
I have no tricks up my sleeve or any magical tips in over-coming this emotional side of eating. There are many times that I reach for food ~ especially when I experience mindless eating.
A big part of my success ~ I don't set myself up for failure. I don't have the temptations that I know I cannot resist. If I'm going to shove food in, to comfort an emotion, my choices are apples, pears, nectarines, cantaloupe, carrots, green beans, pea pods, fish or chicken.
I still get bored, am lonely, am happy and will always be challenged with mobility issues. But I'm also seeking other ways of dealing with those emotions ~ like volunteering my time.
Genealogy and quilting are a BIG part of my life! Through quilting, I'm providing quilts for children with cancer and newborns in need.
With my genealogy, I've been volunteering my time with Familysearch.org in providing new resources ~ the current project: 1940 Federal Census - will be available in 2012.
I will often help others with their family trees ~ I just LOVE the hunt & search!!
Now I sometimes get so wrapped up in an activity that I forget to eat ~ too bad THAT scenario didn't happen more in my lifetime!! LOL
I'm not certain I will ever be cured from emotional eating.
But each time I can "fill the need" with another activity, the hurdle becomes less challenging and I look forward to the day when it is just a bump in the road...