Here We Go Again!!!

Here we go again! I feel like I am starting all over for the third time. Life has passed me another baby and now I am 174 pounds. I did not do so well watching my weight with this last baby. He came out weighing 9 pounds 12 oz. I see why I gained so much weight ;) Now I have to start all over again. Having four children under the age of 6 is overwhelming, exhausting and consuming. How will I cope trying to get rest and add exercise? I don't know but I have to find a way. When I weigh over 200 I had a lot of medical problems. They cleared up with ease as the weight fell off. But now finding the will to work hard on myself is non existent. I spend a lot of time at home and food surrounds me. Going out to a park is more work then having a job. I feel hopeless.

I know the drive is in me somewhere but its a "needle in a haystack". I know when I finally fish it out then I'll be on track again. Right now I just try hard everyday, one day at a time. I start over each day with an optimistic approach in wait of the day my journey kicks in with auto drive. Until then I start this day with "here we go again!"